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cara's death has been easier to cope with than i thought possible. don't get me wrong, when i found out i was inconsoleable. i cried for 5 hours straight at work. but that night i was smoking with john, kali, dayton, and shay. my aunt walked by and said i'm sorry about your friend. when she walked away john said "how can you feel sorry for a girl who died a legend?" she came into our lives and touched everyone she knew and taught all of us a lesson. her time was brief on this earth but because as humans we're selfish and wanted her to ourselves when she always belonged to god. i do miss her terribly. she was the only one in my life, besides seth, i felt i could trust 100%. yall don't understand how truly amazing she was. she is the reason i'm being a strong person today. she helped me see through everyone's bullshit. i hate to say this. but it is so funny when people try to act like cara loved them when all i want to say is, SHE TALKED SHIT ABOUT YOU ALL DAY. mainly kali. cara hated her and she wants to act like she was the last one cara talked to before she died. we hung out often and she said she felt like brooke and cc had abandoned her and that i was her best friend. not her BEST FRIEND. but the person that was there for her the most at the moment, i guess. i miss her so much. when i got arrested she was all i could think about.

i love you tyler and i forgive you for hurting me. i want us to change together. i hope you still love me.