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tonight was pretty much the worst night i've had in quite awhile. i haven't been this upset in a good year or so. i don't want pity, i just want a solution. i want to wake up one day and have everything be amazing.. friends, boyfriend, family, grades, everything. too bad that's never going to happen. the minute one thing looks up, others crumble down, or in my case.. the minute one thing crumbles, another falls to pieces as well.
i'm not doing too hot in school, then things started getting weird with friends, then i was an ass and things got bad with my boyfriend, then my parents blamed me for all their problems and my mom kept saying how my grandma was dying and i didn't even care (who calls her everyday to just say hi? oh yes, that would be me)..and this all happened tonight. i just wish everything could go back to the way it was, maybe 10 hours ago. when my boyfriend and i were still together and we were looking forward to tonight before i ruined it. when my parents were in a good mood and when everything was looking up for a second. sorry guys this is kind of a downer but hey, there aren't very many happy thoughts in my head right now. i'm going to bed. thanks to everyone who just listened to me tonight (mal, katpee, kath, catherine, sarah, robbie, kimbra, alexis) i love all of you.
i'm not doing too hot in school, then things started getting weird with friends, then i was an ass and things got bad with my boyfriend, then my parents blamed me for all their problems and my mom kept saying how my grandma was dying and i didn't even care (who calls her everyday to just say hi? oh yes, that would be me)..and this all happened tonight. i just wish everything could go back to the way it was, maybe 10 hours ago. when my boyfriend and i were still together and we were looking forward to tonight before i ruined it. when my parents were in a good mood and when everything was looking up for a second. sorry guys this is kind of a downer but hey, there aren't very many happy thoughts in my head right now. i'm going to bed. thanks to everyone who just listened to me tonight (mal, katpee, kath, catherine, sarah, robbie, kimbra, alexis) i love all of you.