Our's is not to question why...
Seems I have a load this week to try and unburden... Rapid fire.
"Ours not to reason why. Ours but to do and die." Alfred Lord Tennyson.
I looked up at Heaven tonight, and asked why, and the only thing I could see in reply was a patched, covered up blackness. I figure... I didn't actually get to Heaven with my question tonight. Something of this mortal earth is a barrier.
You know how they say in baseball three strikes and you're out, how that sometimes applies to life. Meaning, if you make a mistake, forgiveness is in order, at least once, but baseball twice. Yah... Not a chance. These past two journal entries (this one for those of you who don't have my livejournal) have been one mistake and instant punishment deals. Not a chance of forgiveness in this reality. Not for me. Not for someone I love. And all I can wonder is... why?
I'm a big believer in God has a plan for everything and everyone, but we sometimes really have no idea what that plan is... Well, I'm cool with that. When minor crap happens, that's fine... Even serious issues I can understand can sometimes just be part of the grand scheme of things. But when it's petty things, things that just seem to have no purpose but make life miserable for someone who doesn't deserve it... I don't get it. I don't see it. My beloved has had enough pain recently, why must more happen to him? And it didn't need to happen either. There are so many things that could have happened differently that could have averted it. So many different courses of action people could have taken. And nothing, nothing he could have done differently, not a thing about it, was the fault of my beloved, the one who received the punishment.
I don't get it... There's got to be a reason. Something good from all this suffering... Something... Just please, no more pain...
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Yesterday's Word: "pneumatic"
Word of the Day: "boxcar"
"Ours not to reason why. Ours but to do and die." Alfred Lord Tennyson.
I looked up at Heaven tonight, and asked why, and the only thing I could see in reply was a patched, covered up blackness. I figure... I didn't actually get to Heaven with my question tonight. Something of this mortal earth is a barrier.
You know how they say in baseball three strikes and you're out, how that sometimes applies to life. Meaning, if you make a mistake, forgiveness is in order, at least once, but baseball twice. Yah... Not a chance. These past two journal entries (this one for those of you who don't have my livejournal) have been one mistake and instant punishment deals. Not a chance of forgiveness in this reality. Not for me. Not for someone I love. And all I can wonder is... why?
I'm a big believer in God has a plan for everything and everyone, but we sometimes really have no idea what that plan is... Well, I'm cool with that. When minor crap happens, that's fine... Even serious issues I can understand can sometimes just be part of the grand scheme of things. But when it's petty things, things that just seem to have no purpose but make life miserable for someone who doesn't deserve it... I don't get it. I don't see it. My beloved has had enough pain recently, why must more happen to him? And it didn't need to happen either. There are so many things that could have happened differently that could have averted it. So many different courses of action people could have taken. And nothing, nothing he could have done differently, not a thing about it, was the fault of my beloved, the one who received the punishment.
I don't get it... There's got to be a reason. Something good from all this suffering... Something... Just please, no more pain...
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Yesterday's Word: "pneumatic"
Word of the Day: "boxcar"