Fuckin' Finals Part Deuce....
So I'm staying here over Christmas Break...I got permission from the Dean...so I'll be chilling here alone and working on Tuesday's and Thursdays. That should give me some cash for dues, bills, Christmas and what not. At least until I go to Tim's and spend some time with him and his family.
I'm trying to think about stuff that everyone might not know....Well I'm Pi Phi president now. I guess people didn't know. I just didn't really tell a lot of people b/c I didn't want to come off as bragging. I'm humble about the whole thing so I just kept it pretty low key. I'm excited though. More excited that they trust me enough to lead the whole chapter. It's going to be a lot of work, but it's something I plan on working on throughout Christmas break since I'll have a lot of down time.
I'm gonna miss Shnookie (my nephew) and my little brothers and sisters though over break. They'd be the only reason why I would venture to good ol' Hancock county, unless my friends call and say they want to see me. It's so weird not feeling like I have a home anymore. I know I could always go to my mom's or dad's....but stupid ol' me just always felt more at home at my grandparents. Now I feel like I don't even know who my grandpa is anymore...and my grandma...well...nevermind. It reminded me of that line from "I'm Moving On" by Rascal Flatts;
"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on"
I guess I should have known things would end up like this. My gma always told me I was stupid for going to college b/c I couldn't learn the things I needed to know to be successful there. B/c the only thing a woman needed to know was how to clean house and cook. I'm a royal disappointment to her for striving for more and working hard to be something. Who knew going to college would make me a failure?!?
Oh well...tons of people have said they would visit me while I'm here, and I hope they keep up on those promises b/c I know my ADD will be kicked into overdrive while I'm alone. I think Shopp and Rach said they were staying on campus, so that should be fun.
It'll give me some time to do some writing. I forgot how good it felt to sit down and write things out in my private journal. The one you stalkers will never see. :-P j/k. I just feel like there's so much shit I need to sit down and work through. Without any help. Without anyone else's condescension. So maybe this break will be a good thing. We'll see.
So in the meantime...Yay! for break being almost here and two of my finals being take home finals...and Yay! for my internship at Crystal Graphics...Yay! for Oscar not being crazy anymore. Yay! for my presidency and belonging to something I am so proud of...and Yay! for people who call me pumpkin and make me feel special and tell me that the last 10 months have been the most cherished 10 months of their lives.
I love you guys...but it's bedtime...so I'll write more later.
I'm trying to think about stuff that everyone might not know....Well I'm Pi Phi president now. I guess people didn't know. I just didn't really tell a lot of people b/c I didn't want to come off as bragging. I'm humble about the whole thing so I just kept it pretty low key. I'm excited though. More excited that they trust me enough to lead the whole chapter. It's going to be a lot of work, but it's something I plan on working on throughout Christmas break since I'll have a lot of down time.
I'm gonna miss Shnookie (my nephew) and my little brothers and sisters though over break. They'd be the only reason why I would venture to good ol' Hancock county, unless my friends call and say they want to see me. It's so weird not feeling like I have a home anymore. I know I could always go to my mom's or dad's....but stupid ol' me just always felt more at home at my grandparents. Now I feel like I don't even know who my grandpa is anymore...and my grandma...well...nevermind. It reminded me of that line from "I'm Moving On" by Rascal Flatts;
"I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on"
I guess I should have known things would end up like this. My gma always told me I was stupid for going to college b/c I couldn't learn the things I needed to know to be successful there. B/c the only thing a woman needed to know was how to clean house and cook. I'm a royal disappointment to her for striving for more and working hard to be something. Who knew going to college would make me a failure?!?
Oh well...tons of people have said they would visit me while I'm here, and I hope they keep up on those promises b/c I know my ADD will be kicked into overdrive while I'm alone. I think Shopp and Rach said they were staying on campus, so that should be fun.
It'll give me some time to do some writing. I forgot how good it felt to sit down and write things out in my private journal. The one you stalkers will never see. :-P j/k. I just feel like there's so much shit I need to sit down and work through. Without any help. Without anyone else's condescension. So maybe this break will be a good thing. We'll see.
So in the meantime...Yay! for break being almost here and two of my finals being take home finals...and Yay! for my internship at Crystal Graphics...Yay! for Oscar not being crazy anymore. Yay! for my presidency and belonging to something I am so proud of...and Yay! for people who call me pumpkin and make me feel special and tell me that the last 10 months have been the most cherished 10 months of their lives.
I love you guys...but it's bedtime...so I'll write more later.