its been a long time
Its been a long time. But I cant really write in myspace what I would like to. My husband wouldnt understand or he would take it the wrong way. I swear no one understands me. I mean, I know he loves me. But I dont know. Its hard. Ive been working so hard. Im literally exhausted and I come home an hour early expecting to spend time with him cuz hes been bitching about not spending time or having sex as much as he would like to. Well fucking ay Im tired. So I come home from work and hes got a 24 pack of beer. Knowing damn well that I cant stand to be around him when hes drinking and of course it causes this big huge problem. damn he is just like a girl. I thought Jacq was emotional... Jason is so much worse. I have to cater to his emtions all the time. And Im tired of it. It its not me doing that then I also have to deal with my mom. Its just too much! I just want to get away sometimes. But I dont have a place to go. Anyway as for Jason drinking we had made an agreement long ago, if he is going to drink dont do it near me. Go get drunk some where else and dont come home til you are sober. So much for that. I mean, I respect that he isnt going to stop drinking, but atleast respect me and my wishes enough to not do it around me. He gets all emotional when he gets drunk and takes everything I say the wrong way. I hate it. And I cant stand him when hes like that.Even I dont have that many issues with my emotions and Im a female. FUck. It makes me worry if we really are going to last. ANyway more later.