pseudo-deep contemplation
Soooo today was uneventful....late for classes again (I guess to make up for being on time yesterday) and not much else....tho it's national Depression Screening Day, and the counseling people had stuff set up in the Union. So I decided, what the hell, why not do the survey thing; it's free and all.....according to this official-type survey, I "may be suffering from depression". No SHIT, Sherlock. Stupid college and all its work and shit. Anyway, on to other news:
While working on my German project that has become the German Project From Hell, thanks to my rampant procrastination, I have taken several breaks because I do not possess the ability to focus entirely on this one thing for extended periods of time (think longer than an hour). At one point, to momentarily escape from my imminent stress, I went to surf on Facebook (which everyone should do, because it's pointless). To my extreme surprise (enough to make me go, "Holy shit!!!!" and earn a look from my roommate) I find a friend request awaiting confirmation....no, that's not the surprising part, you mean people. The request was from a kid I knew through most of elementary school, but who moved away in 7th grade....I haven't heard from or tried to contact him in over 5 years. It was really weird, because I had basically been entertaining the notion that I would never hear from him again and would just go on having idyllic childhood memories.....I guess it was easier to just leave things in the past than try to catch up.....So I added him as a friend and went to look at his profile.....I don't know what I expected. Maybe I thought he'd be like I remembered, though that's really stupid because everyone changes......I don't know. The part that got to me so much that I had to take another study break to update here was that he's changed so much (well, from what I can guess from his profile.....not very scientific, I know) that he really is a completely different person. Where we had shared interests as kids and such, now we have basically nothing in common. Literally. I really don't know what I was thinking would have happened.....People change. And that's why I'm really updating, I guess. People always change. And if you're not there while they're changing, it's that much more of a shock when you see them again. If you have nothing in common anymore, if you've both changed to the point of being unrecognizable, how do you find a friendship again under all that? Is it even possible? Are you both doomed to revert to not having any contact? Is it better to avoid contact at all?
I think that's what bothers me the most about college: being out of touch with all the people you knew, and when you get back in touch, they're not the same people anymore....
Thanks to all you people out there who I knew before and who haven't changed so much. Go ahead and change, but keep me updated. I wanna be able to recognize you when I see you again. :-P
Now I gotta go do that stupid project with all that on my mind. Goddammit.
.........Yeah. that was undoubtedly the most whiny melodramatic thing I've written yet. Return to your lives, citizens.
While working on my German project that has become the German Project From Hell, thanks to my rampant procrastination, I have taken several breaks because I do not possess the ability to focus entirely on this one thing for extended periods of time (think longer than an hour). At one point, to momentarily escape from my imminent stress, I went to surf on Facebook (which everyone should do, because it's pointless). To my extreme surprise (enough to make me go, "Holy shit!!!!" and earn a look from my roommate) I find a friend request awaiting confirmation....no, that's not the surprising part, you mean people. The request was from a kid I knew through most of elementary school, but who moved away in 7th grade....I haven't heard from or tried to contact him in over 5 years. It was really weird, because I had basically been entertaining the notion that I would never hear from him again and would just go on having idyllic childhood memories.....I guess it was easier to just leave things in the past than try to catch up.....So I added him as a friend and went to look at his profile.....I don't know what I expected. Maybe I thought he'd be like I remembered, though that's really stupid because everyone changes......I don't know. The part that got to me so much that I had to take another study break to update here was that he's changed so much (well, from what I can guess from his profile.....not very scientific, I know) that he really is a completely different person. Where we had shared interests as kids and such, now we have basically nothing in common. Literally. I really don't know what I was thinking would have happened.....People change. And that's why I'm really updating, I guess. People always change. And if you're not there while they're changing, it's that much more of a shock when you see them again. If you have nothing in common anymore, if you've both changed to the point of being unrecognizable, how do you find a friendship again under all that? Is it even possible? Are you both doomed to revert to not having any contact? Is it better to avoid contact at all?
I think that's what bothers me the most about college: being out of touch with all the people you knew, and when you get back in touch, they're not the same people anymore....
Thanks to all you people out there who I knew before and who haven't changed so much. Go ahead and change, but keep me updated. I wanna be able to recognize you when I see you again. :-P
Now I gotta go do that stupid project with all that on my mind. Goddammit.
.........Yeah. that was undoubtedly the most whiny melodramatic thing I've written yet. Return to your lives, citizens.