nothing good comes to me
i think that i'm not suppose to love any one and only be hurt and maybe thats y greg picked me as godfather becasue thats as close as i will come to have my own kid to where i can spoil him and or her to death with what ever they want. maybe i'm suppose to only try and hook other people up instead of having my own love and share it with someone i care about even though i hate this lonly feeling that i wake up to every day with out looking forward to be with any one but only think of people i would love to be with. yea people might say all i do is complain but when u have been alone sinceu where in the 6th grade then u can talk to me casue thats when i really started to like girls so when u beat me then talk to me but if u haven't then u don't know what i'm talking about. yes i do live with regrets. i wish girls would stop being so shallow and actually get to know a guy but wait i go to L'Ance Creuse where that doesn't happen. Yeah I'm FAT but you know what u girls are missing out on The Sweetest Guy u will ever meet but they never give me the chance and the only one that did give me a chance was the one i feel in love with but i blew that to cause now she likes my causin and she liked me like 3 years ago and tere goes my chance of being happy. yeah i would love to have a family and have my feuture kids run up to me and give me a hug and say i'm happy to see u and see my beautiful and best wife but in reality i will come home to a empty house where i will have a pit bull of some cool dog and wait for someone to call me and if i'm lucky someone might but i doubt it . i can sit here and wright more but u guys are probley sick of me sitting here caomplaining about my life well if out but i will leave u witha couple things i say like " u can not kill what u did not create" from slipknot and this"life sucks then u die " and this last one " life sucks then u die fuck it all lets get high" lol
and no i'm not comitting suicide i want to go to heaven if there is one to see my grandmas