So..
It's been a while since I've had an update on my life I guess.
Right now, things are a little bit hard. I've been drunk half of this week, and while it doesn't help, it does kind of hide the hurt I'm facing.
Greg and I broke up, and the worst part is..as much as we want to be together, and as much as we love each other, we can't be together because it hurts being together as well. It's been a hard couple of nights, but it's getting better.
After this relationship, I just keep looking at myself and what I've done wrong with this one..and all the ones in the past, and realized how much I want to 'fix' myself for the better, and maybe be actually to make a relationship last, while being completely happy and content as well as the other person involved. It's just hard not being able to pick up the phone and call him, and it's been 2 days since I've actually talked to him/seen him..and we've never gone a day without atleast talking. It's hard..but at times I feel I want to call him, I just turn the phone off. Other people have been keeping me busy with text messages, so it's all good.
I'm looking forward to finishing school up, and am considering either UF as my 4 year school, or moving up North to Maryland where I have more family. I just don't think I could up and leave my family and friends though. It'd be a hard decision to make.
Agh, I just don't know. :(
Right now, things are a little bit hard. I've been drunk half of this week, and while it doesn't help, it does kind of hide the hurt I'm facing.
Greg and I broke up, and the worst part is..as much as we want to be together, and as much as we love each other, we can't be together because it hurts being together as well. It's been a hard couple of nights, but it's getting better.
After this relationship, I just keep looking at myself and what I've done wrong with this one..and all the ones in the past, and realized how much I want to 'fix' myself for the better, and maybe be actually to make a relationship last, while being completely happy and content as well as the other person involved. It's just hard not being able to pick up the phone and call him, and it's been 2 days since I've actually talked to him/seen him..and we've never gone a day without atleast talking. It's hard..but at times I feel I want to call him, I just turn the phone off. Other people have been keeping me busy with text messages, so it's all good.
I'm looking forward to finishing school up, and am considering either UF as my 4 year school, or moving up North to Maryland where I have more family. I just don't think I could up and leave my family and friends though. It'd be a hard decision to make.
Agh, I just don't know. :(