YOGA PANTS!!!!!!
god i frickin love my yoga pants. they are the most comfortable things on the face of the earth. i just want to live in them. i am so sad cuz i cant do yoga anymore because my instructor is MOVING. NO! fuck i love yoga.
i am at curves right now. ahaghagblah. i mean its not so bad i do love to make money, but i am particularly nervous about this date tonight.
i am so moody right now. nothing is working out properly, nothing is working out the way i want it to. well thats not true but it feels like it. i am really utterly frustrated about nothing and everything at the same time. i wanna scream and cry. my homeostasis is off and i cant distinguish between reality and dreams, because ive been sleeping so much and my dreams are incredibly vivid. i was having this dream i didnt like so i kept pinching myself to wake up and it hurt but i wasnt waking up so i was like SHIT THIS IS REAL. i think im pmsing particularly bad. im like fucking hibernating. im up for maybe 6 hours of the day, every other time i am sleeping. my confidence has dwindled, and i am believing all these men are part of some hideous plot to ROYALLY fuck me emotionally. i really needed to see stephanie this weekend. i needed some party-goddess inspiration. but at least i will get to see vicki. although part of me dreads this weekend. i know it wont be as bad as i am thinking it will be and everything will work out fine, its just completely hard to believe right now.
can we please NOT release massive amounts of estrogen into my blood stream and turn me into a raging heinous bitch? thank you.
my arms are hurting like i have excercised them and i have not.
last night at outback was the BEST i havent laughed that hard in a long time, been forever since i really truly let go and LAUGHED almost to tears. i LOVE my friends. chocolate sauce. lactose intolerance. i dunno im kinda wandering around in this dazed dream, half expecting to wake up and be like ooooooooooh that explains it. theres no way that couldve been real.
argh what the fuck is this. i need to feel ALIVE and not half asleep all the time.
oh and its justin's birthday today. i called him cuz i am....stupid? me?. and when he picked up, he of course sounded deeply emotionally touched that i called. shit.
i am at curves right now. ahaghagblah. i mean its not so bad i do love to make money, but i am particularly nervous about this date tonight.
i am so moody right now. nothing is working out properly, nothing is working out the way i want it to. well thats not true but it feels like it. i am really utterly frustrated about nothing and everything at the same time. i wanna scream and cry. my homeostasis is off and i cant distinguish between reality and dreams, because ive been sleeping so much and my dreams are incredibly vivid. i was having this dream i didnt like so i kept pinching myself to wake up and it hurt but i wasnt waking up so i was like SHIT THIS IS REAL. i think im pmsing particularly bad. im like fucking hibernating. im up for maybe 6 hours of the day, every other time i am sleeping. my confidence has dwindled, and i am believing all these men are part of some hideous plot to ROYALLY fuck me emotionally. i really needed to see stephanie this weekend. i needed some party-goddess inspiration. but at least i will get to see vicki. although part of me dreads this weekend. i know it wont be as bad as i am thinking it will be and everything will work out fine, its just completely hard to believe right now.
can we please NOT release massive amounts of estrogen into my blood stream and turn me into a raging heinous bitch? thank you.
my arms are hurting like i have excercised them and i have not.
last night at outback was the BEST i havent laughed that hard in a long time, been forever since i really truly let go and LAUGHED almost to tears. i LOVE my friends. chocolate sauce. lactose intolerance. i dunno im kinda wandering around in this dazed dream, half expecting to wake up and be like ooooooooooh that explains it. theres no way that couldve been real.
argh what the fuck is this. i need to feel ALIVE and not half asleep all the time.
oh and its justin's birthday today. i called him cuz i am....stupid? me?. and when he picked up, he of course sounded deeply emotionally touched that i called. shit.