-The One I Want- [1S]
GENRE: ANGST + ROMANCE
RATING: PG-13
CAST: Jung Yunho, Kim Jaejoong
AUTHOR: leeyoung_jin
DISCLAIMER: YunJae = My parents!
THEME SONG: Brooke Fraser - Arithmetic
RELEASED DATE: 28 August 2010
WARNINGS: Un-betaed . Character death
SUMMARY: Even when the time passes by, and the flowers have to die, you'll still be the one I want...
I've been staring at the sky tonight
Marvelling and passing time
Wondering what to do with daylight
Until I can make you mine
You are the one I want, you are the one I want
It’s been 10 years since I lost my ability to walk. How I wish I could feel the sun showers my body, engulfing me with warmth. All my life, as if I’ve been cursed, I never even get to use my legs to run or play around in the neighborhood park. All I could do is stay inside my room and watch the other kids play.
“Jaejoong dear? What are you looking at?” I just sat motionless. Oh did I mention that I’m mute? Yes, and all I depend on now is my brains to think. “There, there Jae. It’s time to eat now. Look what I’ve made for you…your favorite jigae.”
I didn’t budge a bit, still staring out the window. My eyes grew wider as a young man, around my age move towards the group of kids. He seemed like he was saying something to the kids which later they obliged. I was about to reach the curtain to close it with my trembling hand when the young man looked up to my direction. He let out one of the most charming smile I’ve ever seen. He’s my first love. He’s Yunho.
I've been thinking of changing my mind
It never stays the same for long
But of all the things I know for sure
You're the only certain one
You are the one I want, you are the one I want
I rang the bell of my neighbor’s house. I’m so excited I can’t even think straight. I’m about to meet him.
The door opened, revealing his mother who looks tired and old. I could see how she has been aging faster than other woman. “Oh Yunho-yah. Come in. You’re here to see Jaejoong right?”
“Yes auntie.” I almost tripped on my own feet when I sprinted up to Jaejoong’s room. Knocking thrice, then I slowly opened the door, trying so hard not to make a sound. I saw Jaejoong’s back and heard a faint snore. He was sleeping. I crawled and hugged him from behind.
I could see he was shocked when he tried to sit up immediately. “No, Jae. It’s just me… Yunho…” He calmed down and turns his face to me. I smiled at him and he smiled back at me. This is the smile I’ve always loved, Jaejoong’s smile.
I've been counting up all my wrongs
One sorry for each star
See I'd apologise my way to you
If the heavens stretched that far
You are the one I want, you are the one I want
It was Saturday night, unlike other youngsters, I can’t hang out with some friends or date a girl. I can’t even talk or walk, who wants to even be friends with someone like me. Someone handicap, with a life not any longer than an elephant. But Yunho said otherwise. He once told me that my age can surpass an elephant. That’s why he bought me an elephant doll.
I remembered clearly the day I fainted and fell of my wheelchair. Yunho carried me all the way to the hospital. That’s the day when he learned about my illness.
-FLASHBACK-
“What’s wrong with him, doctor!?” Yunho grabbed the doctor’s hand harshly, demanding for the truth. “This is the 3rd time in a month that he’s been fainting suddenly! This isn’t how a patient whom suffered minor injuries from an accident should be, is it!?”
“He’s suffering from Ducchene Muscular Dystrophy or what we usually call DMD.”
Yunho slowly let go the doctor and looked at him in shocked. “What do you mean? What’s DMD?”
The doctor just sighed. “DMD is a severe recessive X-linked form of muscular dystrophy characterized by rapid progression of muscle degeneration, eventually leading to loss of ambulation and worst, death.”
“D-Death..?” Yunho looked back at me, I just whimpered silently.
“Yes. Due to progressive deterioration of muscle, loss of movement occurs eventually leading to paralysis. Intellectual impairment may or may not be present but if present, does not progressively worsen as the person ages. The average life expectancy for patients afflicted with DMD varies from late teens to early to mid 20s.”
“Are-are you saying that…that Jaejoong is dying!?”
“I’m afraid so. I’m sorry, there’s nothing I could do about it. There’s no cure to it until now.”
-FLASHBACK END-
And the last thing I heard before I fell asleep is my Yunho cries…
I won't find what I am looking for
If I only "see" by keeping score
'Cos I know now you are so much more than arithmetic
I’m dressing up ever so neatly to impress Jaejoong, coz today he had his weekly physical therapy. It’s sad but I can’t date my Jaejoong like how couples usually date. A visit to a doctor or therapist would be considered a date for us, and that is enough to make Jaejoong smile.
I know that his mother told me to stop thinking about him so much. She said that I need to have a life, date girls, and hang out with friends instead of caring for Jaejoong the whole time. But I can’t just ignore someone like Jaejoong.
I knew that all these times he acted strong even though the sickness is slowly eating him from the inside, he never showed his weakness. He never cried nor complaint about how his back hurts like hell.
Standing in front of the door, I rang the bell but no one answers. So I thought that maybe auntie brought him already.
'Cos if I add, if I subtract
If I give it all, try to take some back
I've forgotten the freedom that comes from the fact
That you are the sum
So you are the one
I want
When I reached back home from Jaejoong’s house, my mom was wiping her tears while my dad let out a sad face. I knew something was wrong.
“Appa? Umma? Why are you crying?”
“Jaejoong…He…” my father breathed out heavily while I even tried to smile, secretly hoping that it’s not something bad. “He couldn’t make it…I’m sorry.” My hopes were crushed in an instant, and so does my heart.
~
It’s Sunday once again. I don’t know how many Sundays I’ve been through without him. Countless of time I visit this place. The place where my love rest peacefully till the day the world has to end.
I knelt down ever so slowly beside the white stone. Putting away my walking stick while my hand caressed a beautiful name that’s carved neatly on the stone, kissing it.
“It’s been a while my Jaejoong.” My trembling hands placed a bunch of while roses on top of the hump grass. I suddenly felt tired and sleepy. I rested myself beside my love one, when my eternal sleep took me away from this world…
When the years are showing on my face
And my strongest days are gone
When my heart and flesh depart this place
From a life that sung your song
You'll still be the one I want…
~
"BREAKING NEWS!
A famous song-writer, Jung Yunho was found dead this morning around 8PM besides a grave that belongs to Kim Jaejoong. As we all recall, Kim Jaejoong was once mentioned by Jung Yunho on the last award he received earlier this year after his last composed song, ‘Arithmetic’ won the Grammy. His works has inspired many and all his lives he dedicated himself to music. Rest in peace, Jung Yunho, may your soul find its place with the ones you love. Deepest condolences from KBS World News. I’m Han Hyerin, live from Studio 2, KBS."
----------------------------THE END--------------------------
A/N: I hope you guys could feel the angst…coz honestly, I almost cried near the end. *speechless* What the heck am I thinking!!!? I don’t even know what kindda sickness DMD is! *dies*
RATING: PG-13
CAST: Jung Yunho, Kim Jaejoong
AUTHOR: leeyoung_jin
DISCLAIMER: YunJae = My parents!
THEME SONG: Brooke Fraser - Arithmetic
RELEASED DATE: 28 August 2010
WARNINGS: Un-betaed . Character death
SUMMARY: Even when the time passes by, and the flowers have to die, you'll still be the one I want...
I've been staring at the sky tonight
Marvelling and passing time
Wondering what to do with daylight
Until I can make you mine
You are the one I want, you are the one I want
It’s been 10 years since I lost my ability to walk. How I wish I could feel the sun showers my body, engulfing me with warmth. All my life, as if I’ve been cursed, I never even get to use my legs to run or play around in the neighborhood park. All I could do is stay inside my room and watch the other kids play.
“Jaejoong dear? What are you looking at?” I just sat motionless. Oh did I mention that I’m mute? Yes, and all I depend on now is my brains to think. “There, there Jae. It’s time to eat now. Look what I’ve made for you…your favorite jigae.”
I didn’t budge a bit, still staring out the window. My eyes grew wider as a young man, around my age move towards the group of kids. He seemed like he was saying something to the kids which later they obliged. I was about to reach the curtain to close it with my trembling hand when the young man looked up to my direction. He let out one of the most charming smile I’ve ever seen. He’s my first love. He’s Yunho.
I've been thinking of changing my mind
It never stays the same for long
But of all the things I know for sure
You're the only certain one
You are the one I want, you are the one I want
I rang the bell of my neighbor’s house. I’m so excited I can’t even think straight. I’m about to meet him.
The door opened, revealing his mother who looks tired and old. I could see how she has been aging faster than other woman. “Oh Yunho-yah. Come in. You’re here to see Jaejoong right?”
“Yes auntie.” I almost tripped on my own feet when I sprinted up to Jaejoong’s room. Knocking thrice, then I slowly opened the door, trying so hard not to make a sound. I saw Jaejoong’s back and heard a faint snore. He was sleeping. I crawled and hugged him from behind.
I could see he was shocked when he tried to sit up immediately. “No, Jae. It’s just me… Yunho…” He calmed down and turns his face to me. I smiled at him and he smiled back at me. This is the smile I’ve always loved, Jaejoong’s smile.
I've been counting up all my wrongs
One sorry for each star
See I'd apologise my way to you
If the heavens stretched that far
You are the one I want, you are the one I want
It was Saturday night, unlike other youngsters, I can’t hang out with some friends or date a girl. I can’t even talk or walk, who wants to even be friends with someone like me. Someone handicap, with a life not any longer than an elephant. But Yunho said otherwise. He once told me that my age can surpass an elephant. That’s why he bought me an elephant doll.
I remembered clearly the day I fainted and fell of my wheelchair. Yunho carried me all the way to the hospital. That’s the day when he learned about my illness.
-FLASHBACK-
“What’s wrong with him, doctor!?” Yunho grabbed the doctor’s hand harshly, demanding for the truth. “This is the 3rd time in a month that he’s been fainting suddenly! This isn’t how a patient whom suffered minor injuries from an accident should be, is it!?”
“He’s suffering from Ducchene Muscular Dystrophy or what we usually call DMD.”
Yunho slowly let go the doctor and looked at him in shocked. “What do you mean? What’s DMD?”
The doctor just sighed. “DMD is a severe recessive X-linked form of muscular dystrophy characterized by rapid progression of muscle degeneration, eventually leading to loss of ambulation and worst, death.”
“D-Death..?” Yunho looked back at me, I just whimpered silently.
“Yes. Due to progressive deterioration of muscle, loss of movement occurs eventually leading to paralysis. Intellectual impairment may or may not be present but if present, does not progressively worsen as the person ages. The average life expectancy for patients afflicted with DMD varies from late teens to early to mid 20s.”
“Are-are you saying that…that Jaejoong is dying!?”
“I’m afraid so. I’m sorry, there’s nothing I could do about it. There’s no cure to it until now.”
-FLASHBACK END-
And the last thing I heard before I fell asleep is my Yunho cries…
I won't find what I am looking for
If I only "see" by keeping score
'Cos I know now you are so much more than arithmetic
I’m dressing up ever so neatly to impress Jaejoong, coz today he had his weekly physical therapy. It’s sad but I can’t date my Jaejoong like how couples usually date. A visit to a doctor or therapist would be considered a date for us, and that is enough to make Jaejoong smile.
I know that his mother told me to stop thinking about him so much. She said that I need to have a life, date girls, and hang out with friends instead of caring for Jaejoong the whole time. But I can’t just ignore someone like Jaejoong.
I knew that all these times he acted strong even though the sickness is slowly eating him from the inside, he never showed his weakness. He never cried nor complaint about how his back hurts like hell.
Standing in front of the door, I rang the bell but no one answers. So I thought that maybe auntie brought him already.
'Cos if I add, if I subtract
If I give it all, try to take some back
I've forgotten the freedom that comes from the fact
That you are the sum
So you are the one
I want
When I reached back home from Jaejoong’s house, my mom was wiping her tears while my dad let out a sad face. I knew something was wrong.
“Appa? Umma? Why are you crying?”
“Jaejoong…He…” my father breathed out heavily while I even tried to smile, secretly hoping that it’s not something bad. “He couldn’t make it…I’m sorry.” My hopes were crushed in an instant, and so does my heart.
~
It’s Sunday once again. I don’t know how many Sundays I’ve been through without him. Countless of time I visit this place. The place where my love rest peacefully till the day the world has to end.
I knelt down ever so slowly beside the white stone. Putting away my walking stick while my hand caressed a beautiful name that’s carved neatly on the stone, kissing it.
“It’s been a while my Jaejoong.” My trembling hands placed a bunch of while roses on top of the hump grass. I suddenly felt tired and sleepy. I rested myself beside my love one, when my eternal sleep took me away from this world…
When the years are showing on my face
And my strongest days are gone
When my heart and flesh depart this place
From a life that sung your song
You'll still be the one I want…
~
"BREAKING NEWS!
A famous song-writer, Jung Yunho was found dead this morning around 8PM besides a grave that belongs to Kim Jaejoong. As we all recall, Kim Jaejoong was once mentioned by Jung Yunho on the last award he received earlier this year after his last composed song, ‘Arithmetic’ won the Grammy. His works has inspired many and all his lives he dedicated himself to music. Rest in peace, Jung Yunho, may your soul find its place with the ones you love. Deepest condolences from KBS World News. I’m Han Hyerin, live from Studio 2, KBS."
----------------------------THE END--------------------------
A/N: I hope you guys could feel the angst…coz honestly, I almost cried near the end. *speechless* What the heck am I thinking!!!? I don’t even know what kindda sickness DMD is! *dies*