Numb
I'm numb, crying, shaking, sobbing... alone.
The presents that I've bought sit in a drawer unwrapped.
I didn't help decorate this year, I opted to cook dinner instead.
Where has all my Christmas cheer gone, where is my Holiday spirit?
Where is the smile I always wore, and the songs I used to sing?
All my holiday spirit died with you...
The day Lucas was born I felt hollow, like something was missing.
I hated Halloween this year, because it's not your birthday anymore.
Thanksgiving came without me giving a care.
It was the first year I didn't go help cook dinner.
It didn't matter to me, I would've rather skipped it.
I haven't gone to look as lights, or decorated my room.
I cried myself to sleep last night, wishing you were here.
Wishing that I didn't have to live through this first Christmas without you.
I know you're in heaven with Jesus,
Tell him Happy Birthday for me if you get a chance,
But that doesn't help those of us left here, with only a photo and a memory.
But don't worry about me, someday I'll be fine.
I'll grow from this and learn to feel again,
and for me, pray that someday we'll be together again, at Christmas time.
Merry Christmas in Heaven...
God please help me. I need you. Please make this feeling go away.
The presents that I've bought sit in a drawer unwrapped.
I didn't help decorate this year, I opted to cook dinner instead.
Where has all my Christmas cheer gone, where is my Holiday spirit?
Where is the smile I always wore, and the songs I used to sing?
All my holiday spirit died with you...
The day Lucas was born I felt hollow, like something was missing.
I hated Halloween this year, because it's not your birthday anymore.
Thanksgiving came without me giving a care.
It was the first year I didn't go help cook dinner.
It didn't matter to me, I would've rather skipped it.
I haven't gone to look as lights, or decorated my room.
I cried myself to sleep last night, wishing you were here.
Wishing that I didn't have to live through this first Christmas without you.
I know you're in heaven with Jesus,
Tell him Happy Birthday for me if you get a chance,
But that doesn't help those of us left here, with only a photo and a memory.
But don't worry about me, someday I'll be fine.
I'll grow from this and learn to feel again,
and for me, pray that someday we'll be together again, at Christmas time.
Merry Christmas in Heaven...
God please help me. I need you. Please make this feeling go away.