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Misanthropy will get me down quickly...
so will the fact that even if I say I trust someone, very often theres something in the back of my head saying that I dont..or at least, given certain events or conversations even, leave me wondering if that trust is something that shouldn't be given?
I need to ramble..like just spill everything that doesn't make any sense to anyone...but then, I dont want to..
Ever wish you could just sit, in complete silence..without a thought? a truely completly clear head? yeah...havent had one of those moments in over a year and a half now...
I miss
my home
my dogs
my own bed
my close friends (though those that are included in this is becoming less and less everyday for lack of communication..)
when life was simple...when I DIDNT have 576126356489463 thoughts going through my head every second...
feeling close to people
trusting everyone..
being able to have REAL fun, not just saying it and knowing that my mind was elsewhere..
I wish I could put everything I miss..but theres somethings that shouldnt be shared..
I wish I could go back to when I was 5, and my biggest worry was that there really was a monster under my bed (though I'd never have admitted to checking every night then..)
Or maybe..I wish I could go to when I didn't feel so alone..
I'll stop complaining now..my ramblings done..
one more complaint: my abs hurt like all hell...but I can't wait to go to the class again today
so will the fact that even if I say I trust someone, very often theres something in the back of my head saying that I dont..or at least, given certain events or conversations even, leave me wondering if that trust is something that shouldn't be given?
I need to ramble..like just spill everything that doesn't make any sense to anyone...but then, I dont want to..
Ever wish you could just sit, in complete silence..without a thought? a truely completly clear head? yeah...havent had one of those moments in over a year and a half now...
I miss
my home
my dogs
my own bed
my close friends (though those that are included in this is becoming less and less everyday for lack of communication..)
when life was simple...when I DIDNT have 576126356489463 thoughts going through my head every second...
feeling close to people
trusting everyone..
being able to have REAL fun, not just saying it and knowing that my mind was elsewhere..
I wish I could put everything I miss..but theres somethings that shouldnt be shared..
I wish I could go back to when I was 5, and my biggest worry was that there really was a monster under my bed (though I'd never have admitted to checking every night then..)
Or maybe..I wish I could go to when I didn't feel so alone..
I'll stop complaining now..my ramblings done..
one more complaint: my abs hurt like all hell...but I can't wait to go to the class again today