wait till im awake.

[leeniebeanie]

its 4:18. i cant sleep and i dont really want to. neither can nettie....well she s in bed now but awake. i dont know what to say . theres so much. i dont want to say any of it becuase its all about you. i dont know what it is.god knows i love you to death but i dont know if i can do this much longer. maybe its just becuase i feel like shit right now. i needed to hear a comforting voice and i thought yours would be nice to hear even if it was only one word. i feel like im going crazy with all this shit going through my head..it all sounds insane just thinking it. i dont know. whatever. im definetly in that place between dreaming and being awake. only a dream wouldnt feel this bad. so im going to sleep with my nettie.

goodnight<3

...i cant wait to read this in the morning when im fully awake. and see how stupid i feel.