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Things with KangWoon (Roy) and I have slowed to a steady dating. Honestly, I don't want to think about the summer and I am not sure how things will work out between us. He probably treats me the best out of everyone I have experienced relationships with. I am keeping this journal from him because I want some space to talk about how I feel. Anyways, last week, we went downtown to the dumpling place there. We had those, while watching people and sunsets and then, we had ice cream, while walking around. Whenever we study together, he always holds my bag because he says that I look too tired. Then, yesterday, there was this bug that was bugging me. He went around slapping it until he killed it. We went to help Janet pack for a bit. He says that he is really happy when he is around me. I treat him sort of like My Sassy Girl, but all in good fun, I promise. He offered to drive me back to New Jersey, but I knew that my parents would have a fit. I called him while I was drunk and he left me a message about how I should drink some soup the next day, because it should help with my hangover. Janet says that I have been happier since we have been together. Not that I wasn't happy before. I am making an effort to call him and think of things to do for him. I brought him some vitamins because he was sick a while ago. Then, I went and got him some food because he was busy studying for his finals. I'm sorry, but his English is a major downer. We have communication problems, but he admits to it. Anyways, I don't know what to think about the whole situation, so I best not think too much. I'm not afraid of him cheating on me, which is different because I used to have a lot of insecurities like that. I think first of all, I don't think he would, and second of all, if he does, then, it's just over. I think that having fears about someone cheating on you is probably a type of insecurity because I mean, if he wants to be with me and really likes me, then, he wouldn't cheat. And if he does, it just means, not that he is a bad person, just that there is no sense in keeping him tied down. Cheating is stupid because if you are going to cheat, then, why not break off the relationship first and then, you are free to do whatever you want to do. That way, you won't hurt anyone's feelings. Anyways, KangWoon said something really meaningful yesterday. He said that for the first time, he feels that he is starting to feel the need to be more responsible because he knows now that he has someone to take care and look after. Something to the effect that he realizes that his actions affect more than himself now.