HOW DOES SAUCY FIT ME? I DONT GET IT
friday: school was pretty boring. except in oceans we disected fish. steph did all the bitchwork and for that i am truly thankful :) otherwise i would have thrown up. then we had a sub in ceramics so we basically just walked around the school the entire time with kennan. then yea i went to class and it was pretty good actually. rehearsal was completely pointless and retarded. EXCEPT!!! WE HAVE NEW COSTUMES!!!!!!. YESSSSSSSS no more stupid yellow and orange yamacas and see through white costumes! then i came home, and steph teddy james and i all went to crow point for some good calzone. then we rented fairenheight 9/11. EVERYONE should see this movie. it makes me even more angry at bush. people are so dumb for re-electing that fool.
saturday: got up for class. holy shit could i have sucked any more? i was soooooo stiff and tired. but hey kit i remembered the tennis ball. saw lizzie, that was cool. then i went home and took the bottles back and got like $6. you care. anyway, after a long time of thinking that it was gonna be a boring nite, james and i went to wendys, and then we saw stephs car and we met her and sam at west coast video. i beeped at steph and it was funny bc she had no idea who i was. then all 4 of us decided we would drive to cohasset, but we just ended up at hingham beach. while sam and steph went to climb the horse statue thing, james went to go get his car. then we ended up at sams house playing halo. for the majority of the time i was saucy, and steph was DISCO LOL. it was one of the funniest times i've had playing halo in a looonnnnggg time. there were grenades and rocket launchers everywhere and sam was just yelling AHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHH. steph and i just died laughing it was the funniest thing. crazyness. that was a random crazy nite.
sunday: i had to work. it was alright.
i think i have a serious problem. i cant handle change. at all. im afraid of things ending. i dont want to leave all the people i care about more than anything in the world. it scares me because its already 2nd term, and i really dont want to loose anyone. im afraid of being unsuccessful, homeless, friendless, being abandonned. i feel like the prime of my life has already/is slipping away. i cant handle this. im not equipped for this. everyone has something to count on. i dont. its really stressing me out. im really really really afraid of everyone going off to college and doing great and just forgetting about me. i want to clone myself. i feel like shit because i dont know what the fuck i wanna do. i dont know if im gonna make it in the dance world. my grades are slipping, i cant fall asleep, inside i feel constantly depressed and i dont know why
i feel like im dying already :(
saturday: got up for class. holy shit could i have sucked any more? i was soooooo stiff and tired. but hey kit i remembered the tennis ball. saw lizzie, that was cool. then i went home and took the bottles back and got like $6. you care. anyway, after a long time of thinking that it was gonna be a boring nite, james and i went to wendys, and then we saw stephs car and we met her and sam at west coast video. i beeped at steph and it was funny bc she had no idea who i was. then all 4 of us decided we would drive to cohasset, but we just ended up at hingham beach. while sam and steph went to climb the horse statue thing, james went to go get his car. then we ended up at sams house playing halo. for the majority of the time i was saucy, and steph was DISCO LOL. it was one of the funniest times i've had playing halo in a looonnnnggg time. there were grenades and rocket launchers everywhere and sam was just yelling AHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHH. steph and i just died laughing it was the funniest thing. crazyness. that was a random crazy nite.
sunday: i had to work. it was alright.
i think i have a serious problem. i cant handle change. at all. im afraid of things ending. i dont want to leave all the people i care about more than anything in the world. it scares me because its already 2nd term, and i really dont want to loose anyone. im afraid of being unsuccessful, homeless, friendless, being abandonned. i feel like the prime of my life has already/is slipping away. i cant handle this. im not equipped for this. everyone has something to count on. i dont. its really stressing me out. im really really really afraid of everyone going off to college and doing great and just forgetting about me. i want to clone myself. i feel like shit because i dont know what the fuck i wanna do. i dont know if im gonna make it in the dance world. my grades are slipping, i cant fall asleep, inside i feel constantly depressed and i dont know why
i feel like im dying already :(