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Ok so where do I begin….haven’t really updated in a while, so I guess I should state that I started school again January 18th and am taking Math, General Psych, Comp 1, Shakespeare and Seminar for Student Success. I am so happy that the seminar ends this week, it is only for one credit and it is just sooooooo boring. So far I have all A’s in my classes so I am DEFINETLY doing better than I did last semester. :-) So that is the good news. Today however I think I had a minor breakdown of some sort or something. Well it kind of started yesterday before Kevin came over….I don’t get why or what the hell is causing it. I really don’t even know how to begin explaining it, but I think once I get my health card this week through my dad’s work I have to go make an appointment to do all kinds of blood work. I am really just hoping my anemia is what is causing the random passing out, and the feeling light headed and dizzy like I am going to pass out. Because I have gone back to eating little meat so my iron may be low, while I am really hoping because vitamins I can deal with. Although because diabetes runs in my family on my fathers side I am so fucking scared that could be something I need to worry about. I have been trying to “flush” my system because I have been feeling this way for a while and I thought maybe I was just having too much soda or chocolate or something. This week TOM is here though so maybe that has something to do with feeling shitty this week. HOPEFULLY. I know I’m not pregnant so that isn’t a worry for me. But it’s like I have no clue what is going on and it isn’t like this is new for me either. In high school I fucked up my system and remember feeling horrible but I don’t remember being this bad. What sucks is it scares me so much I get all nervous and feel like crying and I know it makes me look like I’m a friggen nut job but I have no clue why this has been like this since like well I would have to say around Thanksgiving. I also thought, maybe I am kinda stressing about certain things....school, work, money, relationships with people etc.....I just wish I had an answer, but I guess I will go sleep and try not to worry about it at the moment, because it will probably make it worse.