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First off I would like to say Merry Christmas Eve! Can not believe that this year is almost over. Today was rather interesting. I had to work boooo! But I got out early yaaaaaaay! So I suppose it evens itself out. Went up to auntie’s new house. It was alright. Same old stuff. They ate and watched TV and talked and I was reading and on the computer. On the way up there I text messaged Kevin and said love you at the end, now if you know me and what I have been through, like really know, then you know that I don’t say that to anyone. But I honestly have been thinking about stuff like about me and him. I know we’ve been “dating” or “talking” or whatever since August, and only been boyfriend/girlfriend since November, but I can’t help wondering why we get along so well and why we have not fought or anything. Kinda scary I’m not used to someone being so nice without a motive. And I don’t think he honestly has one. Of course if he does he has an excellent way of hiding it. I can’t describe how I feel about him. I just completely let my guard down with him all the time don’t care about anything and even though we can do nothing all day but fight about why we should or shouldn’t watch channel 55, I have the best time being with him. However I am worried that because I said it he is going to be all weird. But we talked after that and nothing seems to be wrong but it is hard to tell over the phone and computer. I just hope I didn’t fuck anything up. Although, Leeanne has been known to slip twice with him about saying this…..even if that is how I feel I don’t want him to feel like he has to say anything back, and I’m not going to say it a million times a day or anything. I guess I am going to try and not be confused………..