*revelations after a looooong absence*

[leela1]

You know what? I'm tired of crying over a dead man, I'm tired of hiding away from my world, my friends, my family. Hell, I'm tired of hiding from my enemies. I have done nothing for two years except to ignore the world, hiding in my room, on my land and mourn the dead and the gone. And in the process I lost myself, forgot how to live.

I want to live.

Gods, I hope I can remember how to live.