Out of control
I have lost control of my feelings. They are just out there for the taking. I don't know what they are, I just know I am very cranky and pissy because I think/feel in an undescribable way.
Odd.
Liberating sort of, but not in an enjoyable way.
I really need to be able to physically blow off some steam, but can't take a deep enough breath to even walk briskly let alone be violently active. Bad timing for asthma misery.
Go see MGF in a couple of hours. Feel bad, left her a couple of messages that bordered on nasty simply because I needed to vent and she was a safe target. I will have to apologise for my unrulyness. She actually called yesterday (but I missed the call by seconds, *grr*) to make sure I was "ok" - that's how bad the messages were. I did call back and tell I would survive until today, it was the least I could do...
Odd.
Liberating sort of, but not in an enjoyable way.
I really need to be able to physically blow off some steam, but can't take a deep enough breath to even walk briskly let alone be violently active. Bad timing for asthma misery.
Go see MGF in a couple of hours. Feel bad, left her a couple of messages that bordered on nasty simply because I needed to vent and she was a safe target. I will have to apologise for my unrulyness. She actually called yesterday (but I missed the call by seconds, *grr*) to make sure I was "ok" - that's how bad the messages were. I did call back and tell I would survive until today, it was the least I could do...