Oh sweetheart. I know I can't say anything to make you feel better. I know you wanted it so you could support the band and perform your guts out. And it's so easy to say, "Well, you gave it your all, and that's all that matterss." But I know that doesn't help either. I love you so much darling, and I'm so proud of you for fighting the good fight ;-) Come to UAB and we will rock everybody's faces off every stinkin' day in every stinkin band here lol.
UAB's def. on my college list,actually its like the only one in Alabama,so there is prolly a good chance that I will go there,because I can't stay here.LoL.When are your finals or whatever you call them in big bad college?haha <3
To answer your question...yes,I did try out for the first one,and while I understand that it was a very small cast,I think somethings a little off when you wait three hours to read for any part and then only get to read a total of three lines...yea...and when everyone else got to read close to three different parts?I'm sorry if I'm the only one who has a problem with that.I honestly would rather you tell me straight out the honest truth.I like things to be known..so,here's the thing,I'm not gonna get in a bunch of stupid wars of words over a blog i wrote.I wrote my personal feelings and I was completely honest about the way I felt.Getting in fights because of what someone said or wrote on Myspace,Xanga,or Live Journal is stupid.But I'm also not gonna lie about the way I feel about what happened.And I wish you would be honest about who you were...it might even make me respect you...for saying what you want and being honest.However,I'm not gonna waste my time with what you or anyone else thinks about what I said...I had to get that out
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I know that you don't want to read this or even think about me right now but please just hear me out...I don't know what I did to you or why your anger is directed straight at me but if you will just tell me whats going on I can try to fix it, explain it or whatever...I know that you are upset about the drum major thing and I know how it feels not to get something you really want:: cheerleader, volleyball, basketball, it took five years to get first chair and that was only because Nathan graduated and Elizabeth quit, District Honor Band, All state:: These are all things that I wanted very badly and never got but God had better plans for me at that time. And finally I get something I want and you ( as my friend) couldn't even be a little bit happy for me. I hope that we can work this out. We missed you in sunday school...we are still praying for you and your family.Happy Easter! IN Christ love,
I'm gonna try to put this in a way that doesn't make me sound like a complete bitch...although there is no denying that I do have my moments...sometimes,you get a little on the bossy side.And not just that...it's that you have a tendency to make people feel inferior.It hurts other people to be treated like that.And while a lot of times I don't think you do it intentionally,it still hurts others none the less.To be perfectly honest you sometimes come off as a snob,and a lot of the times when its like you and me,one on one,its not like that...but when in a larger group of people it sometimes seems as though you want to be the boss.Honestly,a lot of the anger that I'm harboring is not actually against you.Granted,that there is a small part of it,but I'm mostly angry at stegall for making me feel as if I had this really great chance,I'm mad at Waters,because sometimes I think he underestimates what I'm capable of.I'm mad at Mr.Hope,and other various directors around here who only cast certain people,and I know people think I'm just
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I know that I have a tendency to be bossy but I can also be caring and understanding...everyone just sees what appears to be going on and may not truly understand the situation...I desire PERFECTION even though it can not be obtained and that is where some of my bossy tendencies come from...I'm sorry that you still feel the way you do ...but i am glad to know that you are staying in band and that you are still going to do your best regardless of me or anyone else.
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I know that you don't want to read this or even think about me right now but please just hear me out...I don't know what I did to you or why your anger is directed straight at me but if you will just tell me whats going on I can try to fix it, explain it or whatever...I know that you are upset about the drum major thing and I know how it feels not to get something you really want:: cheerleader, volleyball, basketball, it took five years to get first chair and that was only because Nathan graduated and Elizabeth quit, District Honor Band, All state:: These are all things that I wanted very badly and never got but God had better plans for me at that time. And finally I get something I want and you ( as my friend) couldn't even be a little bit happy for me. I hope that we can work this out. We missed you in sunday school...we are still praying for you and your family.Happy Easter!
IN Christ love,
Baylee
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