Me time.
Today, I've avoided going out of the house. I'm not sure exactly why I didn't accept the invitation to go CZ-ing with the girls today, but I didn't feel like going. Part of me felt guilty cos I've ben out everyday for the past three weeks or so, yes, even during exams, and part of me felt lazy to go anywhere that requires me to dress up and look nice. And part of me thought, I needed some alone time.
Being with friends is one of my favourite things in the world, but no doubt about it, I do not mind doing things alone. I can eat alone in public, shop on my own, go to the beach on my own, do anything and everything that I can do alone on my own. You see, I am not afraid of being alone, and of being lonely. I guess its just the way I do things because I prefer it that way. Now, don't get me wrong, being with my friends takes preference over being alone but sometimes you need that little island of time where I can think about me, and only me. Yes, I can too allow myself to be selfish.
I am now, in that phase of needing time for me and only me alone, so I won't really be acknowledging people online or updating my blog properly for the sake of other people. I want to be slefish for these few days and let myself acknowledge the hitting reality of what I want. I'm not making any sense but I'm not in the right state of mind so what the heck.
I just realise that sometimes being single is not all that it seems to be. It gets lonely sometimes and it just hurts to see my friends happy with their loved ones. I envy their relationship. I envy everything that they have and I guess I want that too, but I guess I can't have it.
Depressed yet again.
Out.
Being with friends is one of my favourite things in the world, but no doubt about it, I do not mind doing things alone. I can eat alone in public, shop on my own, go to the beach on my own, do anything and everything that I can do alone on my own. You see, I am not afraid of being alone, and of being lonely. I guess its just the way I do things because I prefer it that way. Now, don't get me wrong, being with my friends takes preference over being alone but sometimes you need that little island of time where I can think about me, and only me. Yes, I can too allow myself to be selfish.
I am now, in that phase of needing time for me and only me alone, so I won't really be acknowledging people online or updating my blog properly for the sake of other people. I want to be slefish for these few days and let myself acknowledge the hitting reality of what I want. I'm not making any sense but I'm not in the right state of mind so what the heck.
I just realise that sometimes being single is not all that it seems to be. It gets lonely sometimes and it just hurts to see my friends happy with their loved ones. I envy their relationship. I envy everything that they have and I guess I want that too, but I guess I can't have it.
Depressed yet again.
Out.