Felt the need to vent

[lee_ko]

There aer just some things about people that really annoy me. Especially the people that say they're your friends. Well let me explain the problem I have. They tell you they're your friends, but when you really need them the most, they aren't there for you. They always want you to be there for them to talk with them, and to make sure they're doing okay, but on a whim they could totally disregard your existence, on account of them not feeling good as well. I don't know about anybody else here, but I've stuck my neck out for people even when -I- wasn't feeling good myself, I listened to my friends and made sure someone was there for them. Why can't anybody do that for me? Oh yes.. right.. it's MY fault because -I- expect too much from people. Yeah I must if I think they're my friends and that I can rely on them to care for me, or even just to fucking listen to one thing I have to say. Apparently I have a problem with helping people when they don't want it as well. What the fuck is that? I just don't understand anybody and why they would want to do such a thing.

I'm just stressing out cause finals are next week and I'm not done with my biggest project yet. But that also bothers me too when I'm treated that way. I don't deserve it at all. My feelings are just as important as everybody elses..