Is There Anybody Listening?
crossposted from Lee Edward McIlmoyle's blog
I’m tired. Really tired. I may also be developing another of my famous chest colds. I think I need to take a long vacation from the life I’ve been trying to lead, and not just because I’m doing such a poor job of it.
I’ve been getting steadily more civically-engaged in the last few years, and it’s been interesting and validating in a way, but I mostly feel like I’ve been pushing a rock up a very steep hill for too long. I feel broken inside.
So what I’m thinking is, I may be handing in my papers soon. I haven’t decided absolutely yet, but I’ve lost so much momentum and my faith in myself to bring it all back up to speed is waning. This might be the end.
We’ll see.
If I do quit, I may be stepping back from a lot of civic engagement for a while to focus on writing and composing and painting and such. I need to rebuild my career(s). I was getting somewhere a couple of years ago, before I got sucked up into all of this. It’s not a good time for me to be losing sleep and missing opportunities to get my work out there.
So, yeah. If it’s of any interest to anyone, I have a slightly soiled plan for the next year or two, and I know a few people who might want to help you get something going, whoever you are. Drop me an email at pbhamontDOTnetATgmailDOTcom if you’re interested.
I’m tired. Really tired. I may also be developing another of my famous chest colds. I think I need to take a long vacation from the life I’ve been trying to lead, and not just because I’m doing such a poor job of it.
I’ve been getting steadily more civically-engaged in the last few years, and it’s been interesting and validating in a way, but I mostly feel like I’ve been pushing a rock up a very steep hill for too long. I feel broken inside.
So what I’m thinking is, I may be handing in my papers soon. I haven’t decided absolutely yet, but I’ve lost so much momentum and my faith in myself to bring it all back up to speed is waning. This might be the end.
We’ll see.
If I do quit, I may be stepping back from a lot of civic engagement for a while to focus on writing and composing and painting and such. I need to rebuild my career(s). I was getting somewhere a couple of years ago, before I got sucked up into all of this. It’s not a good time for me to be losing sleep and missing opportunities to get my work out there.
So, yeah. If it’s of any interest to anyone, I have a slightly soiled plan for the next year or two, and I know a few people who might want to help you get something going, whoever you are. Drop me an email at pbhamontDOTnetATgmailDOTcom if you’re interested.