Closure v.1.0 pt 5 (of 5)
crossposted from Lee Edward McIlmoyle's blog
I won’t post the contents of part 5 directly to my web page, simply because it consists of graphic sex and dirty talk of a nature that some folks might find offensive, and would probably lead to me having to take it down at some point. However, for those intrepid few who are willing to read the conclusion of the original version of chapter 1 of Perpetual Tuesday, I give you this:
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Closure, v.1.0 pt 5 (of 5); NSFW (male/female graphic sex and dirty talk)
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PERPETUAL TUESDAY REJECTS
Closure ver.1.0 pt 1 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 2 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 3 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 4 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 5 (of 5)
Tears ver.1.0 pt 1 (of 1)
Tears ver.2.0 pt 1 (of 3)
Tears ver.2.0 pt 2 (of 3)
Tears ver.2.0 pt 3 (of 3)
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DAILY POST
In other news, I am having severe trouble finding time and focus enough to actually get any part of the current novel done. I’m probably not going to make the NaNoWriMo goal of 50K, let alone my original goal of 225K this month. It’s bumming me out greatly, making it even harder to work. So basically, I’m spiraling down. Good stuff. To top it off, my wife is a little depressed as well, so we’re not helping each other.
The thing is, I really just want to write a novel right now, but I can’t seem to convince myself that I have a book in me that anyone, myself included, really, REALLY wants to read. I want to write something great and show it off and get some sales and kick-start my flagging start-up of a writing career, but really, I just want to write something that will banish the feeling of being a complete and utter failure. I can’t even lay claim to Impostor Syndrome, simply because I have no success to deny.
Clearly I am not in a good head space right now. I’m hoping the Doctor Who 50th anniversary will cheer me up, but even that has been a mixed bag, because Dawn’s mental state and her aversion to my enthusiasm for the specials has dampened my enthusiasm for the show as a whole. I can’t even watch the stuff they’re putting out right now leading up tot he show without feeling like I’m doing something slightly wrong, or dirty, because my wife is so put off by it. It’s going to spoil the show for me, I’m quite certain.
Anyway, it’s not Dawn’s fault. She’s got a lot on her mind, and me taking on the NaNoWriMo challenge, even though I’ve hardly focused on it, upset her as well. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Nothing seems to be the right move, and as a consequence, that’s exactly what I’ve achieved.
So send us some good vibes, and hopefully I’ll get my groove back soon.
Lee.
I won’t post the contents of part 5 directly to my web page, simply because it consists of graphic sex and dirty talk of a nature that some folks might find offensive, and would probably lead to me having to take it down at some point. However, for those intrepid few who are willing to read the conclusion of the original version of chapter 1 of Perpetual Tuesday, I give you this:
____________________
Closure, v.1.0 pt 5 (of 5); NSFW (male/female graphic sex and dirty talk)
____________________
PERPETUAL TUESDAY REJECTS
Closure ver.1.0 pt 1 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 2 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 3 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 4 (of 5)
Closure ver.1.0 pt 5 (of 5)
Tears ver.1.0 pt 1 (of 1)
Tears ver.2.0 pt 1 (of 3)
Tears ver.2.0 pt 2 (of 3)
Tears ver.2.0 pt 3 (of 3)
____________________
DAILY POST
In other news, I am having severe trouble finding time and focus enough to actually get any part of the current novel done. I’m probably not going to make the NaNoWriMo goal of 50K, let alone my original goal of 225K this month. It’s bumming me out greatly, making it even harder to work. So basically, I’m spiraling down. Good stuff. To top it off, my wife is a little depressed as well, so we’re not helping each other.
The thing is, I really just want to write a novel right now, but I can’t seem to convince myself that I have a book in me that anyone, myself included, really, REALLY wants to read. I want to write something great and show it off and get some sales and kick-start my flagging start-up of a writing career, but really, I just want to write something that will banish the feeling of being a complete and utter failure. I can’t even lay claim to Impostor Syndrome, simply because I have no success to deny.
Clearly I am not in a good head space right now. I’m hoping the Doctor Who 50th anniversary will cheer me up, but even that has been a mixed bag, because Dawn’s mental state and her aversion to my enthusiasm for the specials has dampened my enthusiasm for the show as a whole. I can’t even watch the stuff they’re putting out right now leading up tot he show without feeling like I’m doing something slightly wrong, or dirty, because my wife is so put off by it. It’s going to spoil the show for me, I’m quite certain.
Anyway, it’s not Dawn’s fault. She’s got a lot on her mind, and me taking on the NaNoWriMo challenge, even though I’ve hardly focused on it, upset her as well. I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. Nothing seems to be the right move, and as a consequence, that’s exactly what I’ve achieved.
So send us some good vibes, and hopefully I’ll get my groove back soon.
Lee.