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wow, wat a day. happiness, anger, saddness, heartbrokeness (i dont kno if thats a word..but o well) today has been crazy. first, cody and i we're going out. and that was fine. then i dumped him. soon after that, i found out that he made out with a girl WEDNESDAY NIGHT. and we had been going out since monday. so, i flipped out, and sami, nick, and jordan we're helping me thru it. i have no idea where i would b right now.
lately ive been feeling like my life didnt matter, and there was no reason 2 live anymore. if nick and sami hadnt been there, i wouldnt b here. nick is a person anyone can talk to, about anything. he has helped me thru everything that has been going on and i love him 4 it. (like a bro.) right now. i just cant believe all of the thoughts that we're going thru my head. its like. whoa. i was really going 2 do it this time. other times, i had just thought about it, this on i was actaully planning things out. like, if my mom would find me..or my sister...or what not. and if i would go 2 heaven or hell. i thought that if i excepted God into my heart. and have been forgave for my sins, that i would go 2 heaven. but, i figured out that God has to decided when you live or die. and right now, im gonna leave that decision up to him.
lately ive been feeling like my life didnt matter, and there was no reason 2 live anymore. if nick and sami hadnt been there, i wouldnt b here. nick is a person anyone can talk to, about anything. he has helped me thru everything that has been going on and i love him 4 it. (like a bro.) right now. i just cant believe all of the thoughts that we're going thru my head. its like. whoa. i was really going 2 do it this time. other times, i had just thought about it, this on i was actaully planning things out. like, if my mom would find me..or my sister...or what not. and if i would go 2 heaven or hell. i thought that if i excepted God into my heart. and have been forgave for my sins, that i would go 2 heaven. but, i figured out that God has to decided when you live or die. and right now, im gonna leave that decision up to him.