Maybe My Life has a Purpose After All:
I was reading this article:
http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/conditions/01/17/cancer.deaths.ap/index.html
...and I realized that cancer deaths in the U.S. dropped significantly over the time that I worked at the UMAB cancer center. It's good to know that maybe I played a minute role in that. Maybe while I'm at the school of social work, the number of deadbeat dads will decrease. I've been setting up databases that keep track of child support, which again I feel is part of the greater good. I like jobs like this. Sometimes it helps me get up in the morning and go to sleep at night knowing that what I do is worthwhile. I've never been materialistic, so I need something like that to keep me going. Making money isn't enough for me. I also played with a jazz band last night and realized I've got a lot of practicing to do if I want to keep up with them. It's good, because hopefully I'll grow as a musician. I feel the same thing with my job, it's been a real step up for me, so I'm constantly having to learn new things and expand my boundaries in order to keep up. It's good to challenge yourself though. There's no growth without risk. Sometimes you just have to throw yourself out there and hope for the best. And if the skills and abilities you have aren't quite enough, you can learn new ones. Anyway, I've been teetering between mild depression due to feelings of inferiority and major happiness in realizing that I'm growing and making myself better. It's a process, but as long as I'm learning new things, all this will be good for me. Hopefully I can keep my confidence level up in the meantime.
http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/conditions/01/17/cancer.deaths.ap/index.html
...and I realized that cancer deaths in the U.S. dropped significantly over the time that I worked at the UMAB cancer center. It's good to know that maybe I played a minute role in that. Maybe while I'm at the school of social work, the number of deadbeat dads will decrease. I've been setting up databases that keep track of child support, which again I feel is part of the greater good. I like jobs like this. Sometimes it helps me get up in the morning and go to sleep at night knowing that what I do is worthwhile. I've never been materialistic, so I need something like that to keep me going. Making money isn't enough for me. I also played with a jazz band last night and realized I've got a lot of practicing to do if I want to keep up with them. It's good, because hopefully I'll grow as a musician. I feel the same thing with my job, it's been a real step up for me, so I'm constantly having to learn new things and expand my boundaries in order to keep up. It's good to challenge yourself though. There's no growth without risk. Sometimes you just have to throw yourself out there and hope for the best. And if the skills and abilities you have aren't quite enough, you can learn new ones. Anyway, I've been teetering between mild depression due to feelings of inferiority and major happiness in realizing that I'm growing and making myself better. It's a process, but as long as I'm learning new things, all this will be good for me. Hopefully I can keep my confidence level up in the meantime.