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I haven't been on here in a very, very, long time. Probably almost a year, but seeing as how others keep up with theirs I feel the need too.
I can't believe I'm still stressing about college stuff. I feel so stupid. Everyone is off going to orientation and buying things for their dorms and I don't know where I'll be in august. I was set one Warren Wilson. I found out which dorm I was going to be in and I even chose my classes. Then, Earlier tonight my parents sat me down and had a long talk which basically summed up to if you go to Warren Wilson, we're cutting you off. They don't think wilson is a good school but its in Forbes top 100! They have the exact major that I want and amazing abroad programs. I know it souns selfish that getting cut off is a big concern of mine but it's not only that. My dad will make my life Hell if I go there. This year we've been on pretty good terms and if I do this then it will just crush everything we've fixed. I know that it is my life and I should start making my own decisions, but I just want to make him happy. I make myself so mad. He's the only person who really gets to me. One minute he's my best friend and we can laugh and watch soccer games and talk about Simon and Garfunkel or classical music then the next minute he's calling me an ungrateful, manipulative, bitch and reducing me to tears while I'm at work. He doesn't like it when things don't go his way. Mama and i talk about this all the time. She's too scared to tell him that she's engaged. And he's a bitch about it because he's jealous of Beck. He's just fdjgkljfdklgjadfg I"m getting myself all worked up about him and the stupid college situation. Right now they tell me my choices are Tenn Tech, UTC, or Belmont. I don't wanna go to UTC because there are no more dorms unless Meredith kicks out one of her roommates. I don't really care about Tech except I don't know anyone who is going there. And I really like Belmont but all the school's aid is exhausted and they'll have a problem getting me into a dorm, therefore I'll have to live at home for another year! Blehhh, I wish they had crushed my Warren Wilson dreams in December so I wouldn't be dealing with all this shit now.
Anyways, my best fucking friend forever and I are going to Florida for a week. I"m pretty excited. We're staying a nice house and its the beach and we're flying so I don't have to sit in a car for 11 hours. I'm going to attempt to tan, but I probably won't becauce I bought some SPF 100. I have skin cancer speck and I don't want it to spread because I've seen my dad's skin cancer and its one of the grossest things I've seen. It rivals nasty Richard puking up blue powerade on prom night...He looked like Jabba the Hut. BUTTTTTTT before Bea and I go to Florida Jazzy Jeff's birthday is Friday!!! We're going camping at Meriwether Lewis at Natchez Trace, which is one of my most favorite places in the world. Lilly and Madchen are setting up camp early. Unfortunately, I have to work until 7. I never work Fridays. I always work weekends, but this weekend is the World Cup, so I took off. I know the party will be great whatever happens. And in the morning we can go to Jackson Falls or the rope swing!!! And the health department says the water is safe now, yayy!!
I have busy day of swim lessons, appointments, and birfday shopping tomorrow! :D