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if anyone has a twitter, i am there too. i am following a few of you already i think but feel free to add

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i am basically just exploring all these new and fascinating avenues of the internet, lately.

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[twostarsforarms]

so, i had a dream about kellie last night that was the most vivid sice the whole ordeal and we were at my parents' house and she text me for some reason so it was the first time we had talked and at some point she said something like "im so glad i'm not in love with you anymore" and i remember thinking "well that's not true" but i didn't say it and then we were in my room sort of updating each other about our lives and i was like "so we have to talk about it because i can't not bring it up, why did you sleep with that girl so soon after?" and she got all weirded out and started to leave and i remember saying something like "well at least you had /that/ to get over me with" and then she started to drive away in this really tiny shiny red car and then she pulled by the driveway and i was like "can we talk later?" and she was like "yeah" and then i remember trying to restrain myself from texting her immediately after she left
WHICH woke me up
and now i feel sad :( i hate my subconscious because it keeps doing this to me
so i told rachel and she is like "kristen you so have to get over this girl" and i was like i am until i have dreams and she's like "no you're not, you either talk about her or how you're over her 3-4 times a week" and i was like yeah i guess (but i go through phases)
so now i'm sad and freaking out that i'm stuck here forever??? and i'm not over her??? a WHOLE year? what future do i have?
and i wonder if i'm secretly psyching myself out and still trying to wait for her and keep myself busy until she comes back, which is not good, like what is my subconscious planning?
and i am also worried i am partly responsible for her insanity but i couldn't really do that? i don't know why i care