guess what
It's saturday night, i'm home, bored shitless, with nothing to do and on the verge of going crazy. surprising? no, not really.
I'm tired of my so called typical situations. they always seem to catch up with me no matter how hard I try to avoid them. things change but it's all the same.
work is changing but it's all the same (hectic). boys are changing but they're all the same (independant bastards who won't commit). I'm changing but at the end of the day, guess what, i'm all the same (loser).
I don't even know if I'm in any position to complain anymore. one minute i'm fine, the next I feel like this complete and total moron who's wasting his life away.
my days off and my weekends KILL me. and not in the good way. I work so fucking much that when I don't, I feel useless. it's like I need work to validate me. so cut to me at home, doing fuck all, bored, wishing I was at work. and of course once i'm back, i'm looking forward to my day off thinking it'll be different this time. but it's all the same. I don't do anything and I don't see anyone.
argh! I hate when i'm feeling like this. first post in 2 months and it has to be a depressive one. what can I say, another lame saturday night to add to my record.
I'm tired of my so called typical situations. they always seem to catch up with me no matter how hard I try to avoid them. things change but it's all the same.
work is changing but it's all the same (hectic). boys are changing but they're all the same (independant bastards who won't commit). I'm changing but at the end of the day, guess what, i'm all the same (loser).
I don't even know if I'm in any position to complain anymore. one minute i'm fine, the next I feel like this complete and total moron who's wasting his life away.
my days off and my weekends KILL me. and not in the good way. I work so fucking much that when I don't, I feel useless. it's like I need work to validate me. so cut to me at home, doing fuck all, bored, wishing I was at work. and of course once i'm back, i'm looking forward to my day off thinking it'll be different this time. but it's all the same. I don't do anything and I don't see anyone.
argh! I hate when i'm feeling like this. first post in 2 months and it has to be a depressive one. what can I say, another lame saturday night to add to my record.