same old, different story
I could go for the obvious, tell you how work has been keeping me annoyingly busy for the past few weeks, months even. I could tell you how ironic the whole thing is, considering that a couple of months ago there I was worried about not getting enough work and now I'm worried I'll be working too much for my own taste. I could also add that I feel as though my days aren't long enough to get everything done, that I feel like I have to run around like crazy just to prove to myself that I'm good at what I do. And I know how that must sound and all but on certain aspects, I'm actually thankfull I have work to occupy my mind 'cause otherwise I'm afraid I'd be bored out of my fucking mind.
Then I guess I could go for the less obvious, tell you how yesterday I did something I really didn't think I would. How I took the risk of seeing someone who badly hurt my feelings a couple of months ago. I saw Daniel again. And even though I've yet to see how I feel about it this time around, right now, there's no mixed feelings, I feel good about it. I'm not gonna lie, yeah seeing him again reminded me of how nice he is, how sweet he is, how cute he is, but it's different now, it's not the big deal it was 5 months ago, I don't feel I owe it to myself to persue things with him to see where it could lead since I pretty much know where things went last time. Yesterday felt easy, felt good, felt natural, felt comfortable. And even though I didn't sleep at all, spending the night in his arms gave me the rest I've been looking for for weeks.
Now if only that stupid Winter would come to an end, everything would be just fine.
Then I guess I could go for the less obvious, tell you how yesterday I did something I really didn't think I would. How I took the risk of seeing someone who badly hurt my feelings a couple of months ago. I saw Daniel again. And even though I've yet to see how I feel about it this time around, right now, there's no mixed feelings, I feel good about it. I'm not gonna lie, yeah seeing him again reminded me of how nice he is, how sweet he is, how cute he is, but it's different now, it's not the big deal it was 5 months ago, I don't feel I owe it to myself to persue things with him to see where it could lead since I pretty much know where things went last time. Yesterday felt easy, felt good, felt natural, felt comfortable. And even though I didn't sleep at all, spending the night in his arms gave me the rest I've been looking for for weeks.
Now if only that stupid Winter would come to an end, everything would be just fine.