emotion/mental breakdown in 5...4...3...
While driveing to work today i almost had a serious breakdown. First of all i was sad cause i had to drive my bf's car... cauae mine broke down... i need a new exhuast system and a new radiator. second of all when pulling in to the parking lot of my job, a cop cut me off we almost hit each other... he had a stop sign pluse 3 cars ahead of him had forced their way passed me, i had thought..."surely that cop a few cars back will let me pass..." i mean he was a cop? anywho... i fucking cut me off... it would make me so angry but it's the second time it's happened with a cop at the same intersection, i think its the same guy!
then work is stressfull enough... but i keep thinking about bad thinks that happened in the past and thinks that haven't happened in the future and the most horrible memorys and future memorys keep flashing through me head!!! and with each "memory-overload" it gets harder and harder for me to come back to reality...
i need someone to talk to... it's extreamly hard to focus... i can't take any critisim without falling in to a "memory-overload".... I miss being happy , i need help:(
then work is stressfull enough... but i keep thinking about bad thinks that happened in the past and thinks that haven't happened in the future and the most horrible memorys and future memorys keep flashing through me head!!! and with each "memory-overload" it gets harder and harder for me to come back to reality...
i need someone to talk to... it's extreamly hard to focus... i can't take any critisim without falling in to a "memory-overload".... I miss being happy , i need help:(