Addendum
Hello, all. Doing well. Feeling up to some deeper responses I've been thinking of giving to a few topics and threads in LJ and Draconic, and working on my next commission. I feel calmer - I was feeling uncomfortable and panicky from hearing that my friend wanted to talk and I was realizing more and more that I was avoiding him until he asked if I wanted to talk with him. After talking to him and just getting some closer bonding time in, I feel very relieved. Now if only I had some art buddies to talk to... :D But we all know how good I am at commitment. :P
Man, I love this music - the orchestral version of Hikari for the first Kingdom Hearts game... it's always seemed to pick up my spirits when I listen to it, even when I was feeling down. It's surprising. :) Beautiful.
Feeling the way I do now makes me realize how much I hate feeling like I am under pressure. Which is what I'll have to be dealing with if I'm to become as confident as I want to be. Then again how do I really want to be confident if I don't feel like I want to tackle that sense of pressure? I know I always feel so much better after I get things off of my chest and overcome the anxiety... yet the struggle resets itself each time I succeed, waiting for the next challenge. It never gets easier. *grimaces*
Man, I love this music - the orchestral version of Hikari for the first Kingdom Hearts game... it's always seemed to pick up my spirits when I listen to it, even when I was feeling down. It's surprising. :) Beautiful.
Feeling the way I do now makes me realize how much I hate feeling like I am under pressure. Which is what I'll have to be dealing with if I'm to become as confident as I want to be. Then again how do I really want to be confident if I don't feel like I want to tackle that sense of pressure? I know I always feel so much better after I get things off of my chest and overcome the anxiety... yet the struggle resets itself each time I succeed, waiting for the next challenge. It never gets easier. *grimaces*