from bad to worse
Life's hasn't been roses and cupcakes lately.
School has been tough. I haven't really been sleeping regularly these last 2 weeks. I had my first Bio exam of the semester that I studied 4 days for yet I still didn't do very well.
My honors colloquial is not interesting to me at all. So much for optimism. I try to participate because I need to do well in this class to stay in the program.
I'm mostly having a hard time keeping up with all the reading I need to do. I'm so glad that I didn't take that Russian history course or else I'd been up to my neck in readings.
It occurred to me way after registration closed that I misunderstood the GER requirement policy and that I could have taken a course to fulfill it and finish my minor without taking Bio. I can't help but hate myself for not realizing it sooner. I'm probably going to finish my minor in the summer now.
I just wish the taxes would come back so I can fill out my FAFSA and get financial aid in the summer.
Academics aside, I met this guy in my Asian studies class that's a bit strange but we have a lot in common personality-wise. He would wait for after class so we would eat lunch together(it's not what it sounds like!) and he would talk and talk and talk. He's nice but his weirdness is overpowering. This guy comes off as a very eager virgin type and he started talking about dicks the first day we met. He gets surprised that some girls know about dicks and sex though.
Guy: You can prick your finger, but you can't finger your prick. (looks very proud of his cleverness)
Me: Well, if you had enough foreskin, you could just push it up and and stick your finger in it.
Guy:(is caught off guard and somewhat shocked) Why are we talking about this?
He also makes it clear when he's attracted to someone:
Guy: What was the girl's name that you sat next to today? She's cute.
Me: I don't know. I didn't really talk to her.
Guy: What was her name?
Me: I don't know.
I started to avoid after he said something about my race that offended for a bit. He tried to talk to me a few times after that but I had also become very busy with my exams so I had to snub him. He has somebody else to talk to after class now and I feel bad about being such a jerk.
He's not the type I would be great friends but I just feel bad that I acted the way I did.
I hope I keep making friends though.
A few more side notes:
I got my bottom braces off! The ones on the top come off next month.
I'm starting to think that I'm not really experiencing college if I don't have crazy anonymous sex and go to wild drug and alcohol-addled parties. Or maybe this is just what some people experience or what the media has led me to believe. I feel kinda stupid and left out at the same time for feeling this way.
I keep thinking about my ugliness lately. No, I'm not pretty at all and I'm fairly pudgy but not obese yet. I can't help but think my appearance has to do with how guy-from-Asian treated me. Then again, I feel like I have nothing to offer personality-wise.
I have way too many icons of China.
School has been tough. I haven't really been sleeping regularly these last 2 weeks. I had my first Bio exam of the semester that I studied 4 days for yet I still didn't do very well.
My honors colloquial is not interesting to me at all. So much for optimism. I try to participate because I need to do well in this class to stay in the program.
I'm mostly having a hard time keeping up with all the reading I need to do. I'm so glad that I didn't take that Russian history course or else I'd been up to my neck in readings.
It occurred to me way after registration closed that I misunderstood the GER requirement policy and that I could have taken a course to fulfill it and finish my minor without taking Bio. I can't help but hate myself for not realizing it sooner. I'm probably going to finish my minor in the summer now.
I just wish the taxes would come back so I can fill out my FAFSA and get financial aid in the summer.
Academics aside, I met this guy in my Asian studies class that's a bit strange but we have a lot in common personality-wise. He would wait for after class so we would eat lunch together(it's not what it sounds like!) and he would talk and talk and talk. He's nice but his weirdness is overpowering. This guy comes off as a very eager virgin type and he started talking about dicks the first day we met. He gets surprised that some girls know about dicks and sex though.
Guy: You can prick your finger, but you can't finger your prick. (looks very proud of his cleverness)
Me: Well, if you had enough foreskin, you could just push it up and and stick your finger in it.
Guy:(is caught off guard and somewhat shocked) Why are we talking about this?
He also makes it clear when he's attracted to someone:
Guy: What was the girl's name that you sat next to today? She's cute.
Me: I don't know. I didn't really talk to her.
Guy: What was her name?
Me: I don't know.
I started to avoid after he said something about my race that offended for a bit. He tried to talk to me a few times after that but I had also become very busy with my exams so I had to snub him. He has somebody else to talk to after class now and I feel bad about being such a jerk.
He's not the type I would be great friends but I just feel bad that I acted the way I did.
I hope I keep making friends though.
A few more side notes: