You can be overwhelmed and you can be underwhelmed...or you can have an existential identity crisis
I feel like the Nirvana song "Lithium" right now. Not necessarily the lyrics, but I just feel weird and that's the only real way to explain it.
I'm going through all my CDs, because I'm sick of owning so many that I never listen to. I'd rather have $3, which is probably all I'm going to get. The only 2 "good" cds I'm selling are Wallflowers "Bringing Down the Horse" (I already have all the songs on my computer) and my bootleg CD of The Clash. I feel like a poser for owning a Clash cd since the only songs on it I ever listened to were "Should I stay or should I go?" (which Mike dedicated to me at karaoke a year ago) and "Rock the Casbah" which is on that cool commercial my mom and I always laugh at. I don't think liking those songs necessarily makes me a fan of the Clash.
Looking through all these CDs makes me hate my taste in music, although I know that these are all things I "used" to like as opposed to music I like now. Although, the music I like now isn't necessarily any better (it is in the sense that I actually like more good music than I used to, but I still like a lot of crap). It's about the same. It's just newer so it seems more preferrable.
I finished Klosterman yesterday, because Chris told me to hurry so he can borrow it. Yume also finished it and sent me a text that said: "Klosterman is done. Next: an existential identity crisis." This actually caused me to laugh outloud, something I claim to do in acronyms on AIM, but is in reality, something I do far less than I would like. I also realized that the reason I have no idea what to do this summer, stems from this being my first summer in 4 years without Jacob. Which is probably what's accounting for this strange mood onset.
I'm trying to come up with creative ways to not spend money and still have fun. So far, I've come up with eating at home, selling cds I never listen to, and watching Boston Legal with Chris and whatever friend are there at the moment (lately Caitlyn and Ben are equivalent to Santa and the Easter Bunny. They can never be seen by people in the same room at the same time or the universe will explode). If anyone has better ideas, let me know.
I'm going through all my CDs, because I'm sick of owning so many that I never listen to. I'd rather have $3, which is probably all I'm going to get. The only 2 "good" cds I'm selling are Wallflowers "Bringing Down the Horse" (I already have all the songs on my computer) and my bootleg CD of The Clash. I feel like a poser for owning a Clash cd since the only songs on it I ever listened to were "Should I stay or should I go?" (which Mike dedicated to me at karaoke a year ago) and "Rock the Casbah" which is on that cool commercial my mom and I always laugh at. I don't think liking those songs necessarily makes me a fan of the Clash.
Looking through all these CDs makes me hate my taste in music, although I know that these are all things I "used" to like as opposed to music I like now. Although, the music I like now isn't necessarily any better (it is in the sense that I actually like more good music than I used to, but I still like a lot of crap). It's about the same. It's just newer so it seems more preferrable.
I finished Klosterman yesterday, because Chris told me to hurry so he can borrow it. Yume also finished it and sent me a text that said: "Klosterman is done. Next: an existential identity crisis." This actually caused me to laugh outloud, something I claim to do in acronyms on AIM, but is in reality, something I do far less than I would like. I also realized that the reason I have no idea what to do this summer, stems from this being my first summer in 4 years without Jacob. Which is probably what's accounting for this strange mood onset.
I'm trying to come up with creative ways to not spend money and still have fun. So far, I've come up with eating at home, selling cds I never listen to, and watching Boston Legal with Chris and whatever friend are there at the moment (lately Caitlyn and Ben are equivalent to Santa and the Easter Bunny. They can never be seen by people in the same room at the same time or the universe will explode). If anyone has better ideas, let me know.