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Work is wonderful. The pay is even more wonderfuller.
I've been drinking a liiiiiiittle too much. It's a school night for goodness sake.
I blame -him-. But I love it.
Is it possible to have a crush on someone but at the same time feel numb to liking them? Cuz that's where I am.
We went out to Bennigans last night and he kept buying me drinks so I kept drinking them and we didn't get home until almost 6... and I had class at 9:30 and worked til close tonight. Bad choice. I'm boring when I'm tired. And I woke up still drunk.
Gian impressed me last weekend. I never thought he'd try so hard. My curiousness revolves around how long it will last though. Being with him was wonderful. But still, numb. Even if I wanted to take him back, I'm not sure I really could. Nothing can be the same. You'd have to pretend.
I don't feel anything about anything anymore. Only anger and deep-seated hatred for my roommates.
Tonight I discovered something kinda funny but really weird and shocking for even myself and almost a little creepy... I think I will always have a liking for Edgar. Isn't that pathetic????? I saw him tonight and it was just... it was nice, but... I almost want to say the chemistry was there but that sounds way too corny and I'm not even sure if that's it. He has a girlfriend and he's happy and I'm happy he's happy as long as he's not with that psycho blonde big-boobed whore.... =D I hardly ever think about him but when I'm around him his personality pulls me in every time. Oh Edgar... I would marry that boy. Or Santi. Or Jonathon Taylor Thomas. What have you.
I've been drinking a liiiiiiittle too much. It's a school night for goodness sake.
I blame -him-. But I love it.
Is it possible to have a crush on someone but at the same time feel numb to liking them? Cuz that's where I am.
We went out to Bennigans last night and he kept buying me drinks so I kept drinking them and we didn't get home until almost 6... and I had class at 9:30 and worked til close tonight. Bad choice. I'm boring when I'm tired. And I woke up still drunk.
Gian impressed me last weekend. I never thought he'd try so hard. My curiousness revolves around how long it will last though. Being with him was wonderful. But still, numb. Even if I wanted to take him back, I'm not sure I really could. Nothing can be the same. You'd have to pretend.
I don't feel anything about anything anymore. Only anger and deep-seated hatred for my roommates.
Tonight I discovered something kinda funny but really weird and shocking for even myself and almost a little creepy... I think I will always have a liking for Edgar. Isn't that pathetic????? I saw him tonight and it was just... it was nice, but... I almost want to say the chemistry was there but that sounds way too corny and I'm not even sure if that's it. He has a girlfriend and he's happy and I'm happy he's happy as long as he's not with that psycho blonde big-boobed whore.... =D I hardly ever think about him but when I'm around him his personality pulls me in every time. Oh Edgar... I would marry that boy. Or Santi. Or Jonathon Taylor Thomas. What have you.