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well u might as well do me like da otha blacks wit lj's and dont comment 2 make me feel sad on this one. im not gonna tell peeps 2 read my entries nomo. if dey were my true friends dey would dem selves. outta da 31 friends on my lj friends list, only maybe 10-15 of dem really talk 2 me online on da phone or through this thing so thanx 2 those peeps if u 1 of dem. i dont think im a bad person. i dont ask 4 much. but wen niggaz say dey gon do sumthin dey make me think dey gon do it. sure i said i was comin out 3 or 4 times b4 i really actually did. u gotta understand i lived in chicago, and dat aint no rich city. do u have 2 look chicago up and wut it looks like? it most definitely aint like moorpark believe me. my real friends dont understand dat though dey believe im rich like dem. sure if i had 400 dollars those times i said i was goin 2 come 2 mp wen i was in chicago i would have most definitely but i didnt and niggaz dont understand dat. yall people dont realize wut i had wen i lived in mp. i had sum very close friends and sum even was like my bros and 4 still r. (tear). da other 2 still is 2 but i wasnt able 2 see dem due 2 another certain 2 people. dem 2 people i thought were my bros. i would give my life 4 dem niggaz but dey dont know dat. dey think im fulla shit now cause one makes a promise 2 get me and da other jumps in tellin me 2 take a train since i wanna come so bad and demandin i come on da day he tells me and if i dont im a pussy. fuck dat wut kind of friend would argue 2 u bout dumb shit like dat den bring up da times i said i was gonna come 2 mp. he talkin like i told him i was comin but i didnt my other so call brother did so dat aint my fault while he tryin 2 put dat same shit on me wen i use 2 say i was gonna come. if da other so call bro made a promise he couldnt keep. now these 2 callin me annoyin and a pussy. one says im annoyin cause i keep askin him y he hasnt come 2 get me and he tells me he hasnt come 2 get me cause he has important stuff 2 do. but i have noticed everytime i talked 2 dis person he was comin from certain person's house and play super nintendo all damn day like we did wen i was in mp 2 weeks ago. he should of neva made a promise he couldnt keep. da other niggah is just i dont know wut 2 say bout him hes dumb. he just jumped in da situation 4 no reason and now he mad at me cause i said i will see him christmas break. da only reason i said dat cause i aint bout 2 ride da train cause i aint got no damn cd player and i dont read books and it aint nuthin 2 do but look out da window and aint nowhere 2 rest yo head 2 fall asleep. but 4get dem like i said i really luv dem like my bros. and i would of died 4 dem niggaz. u know wut i told one of dem? i told dat niggah since he drivin if he was eva 2 get in a accident, i would rush from san diego all da way 2 da hospital just 2 see him. he told me he luved me 4 dat and thanx and he would do da same 4 me. suuuuuurrrrrrreeee. im an emotional niggah gettin sum thangs off his chest. and 4 u anonymous muthafuckin users dat read dis talk all da shit u want but i bet u wont say dat shit in my face and get yo ass laid da fuck down. i didnt get 2 c everybody i wanted 2 but its coo its not yall fault. ima make it up 2 u if i didnt get 2 c u. i wouldnt blame u 4 not hangin out wit da peeps i do or better yet did. peace out 4 now. ill b glad wen i fuckin start scool and sum of m.p. wouldnt have 2 here from my ass nomo.