Meh..

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It's been a while since I've written in here, and for good reason.. I simply don't have time to sit here and type anymore. But usually that is okay with me sometimes, it's better to be active then be a lazy ass. Although, this past year, I have been a lazy ass and I don't understand why. Maybe it's getting older, maybe I'm slowing down.. I know my metabolism sure is. It's sad, but I suppose it's part of getting older. Things need to change, I just need to figure out what needs to change.

I have a bad headache, I got it a little after lunchtime and that really sucks. Yesterday was the shittiest day of my life, today was okay but not really much better. Then it started raining, and that always ruins my moods. I guess I'm just a miserable person. Oh well, that's me. Like it or hate it, that's me. I don't know why I am so miserable lately, I just feel out of control and wretched. I hate that feeling. I hate tension around me, I hate the feeling of tension, awkwardness etc and it really bothers me to the point where I get truly pissed off. Maybe it's the German coming out in me, who knows, all I know is that my life is really bothering me, and it's getting old fast.

I think I need a week off all by myself, on a deserted island, away from everyone and everything. Yeah, I think that'd be ideal.

On a sadder note, I turn 24 in September. Christ..