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ive been a little self centered lately.
i neglected my friends, i wish i could focus on them,
and not so much myself.
i wish i could date again, but everything feels so wrong right now.
and the one i wanted to date, is leaving in less than a month.
her name is abigail if you were wondering, i wanted to see her so much,
because i felt for her and i was saddened and crushed,
and shed some tears when she told me she was leaving.
i really hope i can be her first (kiss) and her be mine, she is just the person i want to share that with
i feel like i have failed others.
even jesus. he knows i love him and i know i do too.
ive fallen again.
God i just wish that i would have dated abby before, god im so stupid.
i had what i wanted right there in front of me and i took her for granted.
and now shes leaving me. i want just to see her before she leaves, more than once hopefully.
i hope whatever jesus has got in store for her unfolds in her life.
i just want to sit and chat for a while.