Sometimes it's hard to know what's real when you're not.

[leavemewaiting]

I've decided to start fresh with this here journal.

I never used it before, but I think I will now.
Or I'll at least try to.

I've redone it so it looks totally different and I've deleted every entry I once had on here.

Starting over fresh.

Tomorrow I'll actually write something of some substance in here.
If I feel like it, that is.

So here's the truth:
1) You were right all along
2) They were never my friends
3) I was living a lie
But I wont fall for it next time.

You figured me out
I'm like a leaf in the wind
I try and find who I am but wind up lost in the end.

Somtimes it's hard to know whats real when you're not
'Cause you know I change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me
But I'm sick of trying so hard.

Waste all your time with me
I know I'm a mess right now
Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Every day i'm just making my rounds, just digging a home
six feet underground.

Sometimes it's hard to know what's real when you're not.
'Cause you know I change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me.
But I'm sick of trying so hard.

Waste all your time with me.
I know I'm a mess right now.
Don't give up, believe...
I'd wait it out for you.

Nothing's here for me but you.