this kind of love, i'm so sick of it.
tonight was interesting.
most parts were fun.
one major part sucked.
i figured seeing my exboyfriend wouldn't be thaaat horrible.
i figured we could talk and that things would be okay.
things were NOT okay.
he showed up with this gorgeous girl holding hands.
they kept walking by me and he kept looking at me, trying to make me jealous.
they danced, they hugged, they kissed, all infront of me.
i went up to him and asked if i could talk to him, and he said he didn't want to.
i started cry/screaming at him and saying that i didnt understand how he could treat the girl he went out with for four years like i piece of shit.
then i decided to have fun.
i danced the night away with all of my camp friends and many many boys, most of whom's sexualities were questionable.
when the party ended everyone was saying goodbye and my ex was hugging everyone and not acknowledging me at all.
and then i realized that this would probably be the last time that i ever see him.
so i ran to him and gave him the biggest, most sincere hug i've ever given anyone.
i started crying a lot.
and he kept appologizing. he was so sorry.
i just don't understand how you can tell a person that they were your first love, and then they can just completely brush you off and say you're just a friend, all in the matter of a week and a half.
after the party corey, jer and i went back to jer's house.
we watched a really good show on dvd.
mad good bands.
i miss the way things used to be.
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most parts were fun.
one major part sucked.
i figured seeing my exboyfriend wouldn't be thaaat horrible.
i figured we could talk and that things would be okay.
things were NOT okay.
he showed up with this gorgeous girl holding hands.
they kept walking by me and he kept looking at me, trying to make me jealous.
they danced, they hugged, they kissed, all infront of me.
i went up to him and asked if i could talk to him, and he said he didn't want to.
i started cry/screaming at him and saying that i didnt understand how he could treat the girl he went out with for four years like i piece of shit.
then i decided to have fun.
i danced the night away with all of my camp friends and many many boys, most of whom's sexualities were questionable.
when the party ended everyone was saying goodbye and my ex was hugging everyone and not acknowledging me at all.
and then i realized that this would probably be the last time that i ever see him.
so i ran to him and gave him the biggest, most sincere hug i've ever given anyone.
i started crying a lot.
and he kept appologizing. he was so sorry.
i just don't understand how you can tell a person that they were your first love, and then they can just completely brush you off and say you're just a friend, all in the matter of a week and a half.
after the party corey, jer and i went back to jer's house.
we watched a really good show on dvd.
mad good bands.
i miss the way things used to be.
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