disappointments only drag me further and further down
so the rally was cool and all, but i'm not in the mugbook, information wise. thanks beth.
i'm not in the mugbook. no information. none. my first rally in 8 months and i'm not in the mugbook. funny how things work out.
i'm not on swuusi staff. which really made me feel bad about myself. the only reason i wanted to be on swuusi staff in the first place was to make a difference and be helpful. and i wasn't going to apply because i thought that i wouldn't get anything, and then tory said i should apply because i'd be really good at a lot of things, but i'm not good at rejection. especially considering swuusi means more to me than it probably means to all of you. to everyone else it's just a week long rally with a lake. to me it's way more than that. i've been going since i was a very little girl. out of my life i have not been able to go to 3 swuusi's. but yeah. i just really wanted to be on swuusi staff since this would be my last year at teen camp. but no one thinks i could have done a good job it seems. oh well. i don't care.
got to corpus around 3 yesterday. stayed at shan's house until 10? with ell.
my car got egged out in front of shan's house. hehe. i will kill them. ::grins::
i like it at ell's house. it's comfy. but i've gotten bit by a mosquito 4 times and it's only been 15 minutes. wow. i hate buggies.
i miss stephen.
i'm not in the mugbook. no information. none. my first rally in 8 months and i'm not in the mugbook. funny how things work out.
i'm not on swuusi staff. which really made me feel bad about myself. the only reason i wanted to be on swuusi staff in the first place was to make a difference and be helpful. and i wasn't going to apply because i thought that i wouldn't get anything, and then tory said i should apply because i'd be really good at a lot of things, but i'm not good at rejection. especially considering swuusi means more to me than it probably means to all of you. to everyone else it's just a week long rally with a lake. to me it's way more than that. i've been going since i was a very little girl. out of my life i have not been able to go to 3 swuusi's. but yeah. i just really wanted to be on swuusi staff since this would be my last year at teen camp. but no one thinks i could have done a good job it seems. oh well. i don't care.
got to corpus around 3 yesterday. stayed at shan's house until 10? with ell.
my car got egged out in front of shan's house. hehe. i will kill them. ::grins::
i like it at ell's house. it's comfy. but i've gotten bit by a mosquito 4 times and it's only been 15 minutes. wow. i hate buggies.
i miss stephen.