ho hum... random disorganized thoughts late at night
So ... yeah... anyways... they started making cutbacks at work this week. I was told that I was safe and that I'd be one of the last two that they would let go. They can't run the company with just one guy. It really makes me wonder just how much longer we're going to be around though. I talked to one of the guys that was let go on Tuesday night and found out that he was told that they had plans to scale back to just the two of us. I did get all of my vacation time in for the year as of last weekend. This weekend I'm only winding up with one day off since I said I'd come in on Saturday and fill in for a co worker that wants the day off for his wedding anniversary. I think it's officially time to abandon ship once and for all. It's obvious what was promised to me isn't going to happen now.
Yesterday at work people were throwing money at me left and right. Today I couldn't get anyone to spend anything other than the bare minimum.
Moms feeling better and her flu seems to have passed. At her age every sneeze makes me wonder what's next. At lest for now current crisis adverted.
I took a pretty good fall off of a ladder on Monday. My fault not the ladder unfortunately. I got right up and kept on working (I didn't have a choice). By that afternoon I was getting pretty soar. That evening I wound up having to take advil and rub in some biofreeze not once but twice. I was afraid I wasn't going to be able to move when I woke up the next morning but I was fine. I guess I can bounce back better than I thought at *gulp* almost 40.
I bought some landscaping (trees) for the front yard. I went out to get some limestone to start building the retaining walls for the front only to discover that my source dried up. They finally cleared it all off and started in on the last phase of the condos. I priced rock last weekend and discovered that buying it is not an option. I've been hunting craigslist and asking around. Not sure what I'm going to do with the trees I bought now.
The painter is making slow progress on the front of the house. I'm glad I'm not paying him by the hour. If he shows up before 1pm I'm surprised. I'll post pics if he ever finishes. My masonry contractor finally located the last of the stone caps we need to finish the front parapet wall. The capstone is going to cost me more than I wanted but oh well. I'll have leftovers that I can hopefully sell on craigslist and get some of the money back. I'm going to try and get a couple of the glass block basement windows installed this weekend. I've never worked with glass block before so it'll be a new challenge. Hopefully it'll help to keep the house warmer this winter.
I haven't been sleeping well the past couple of days at all. Last night I got about 3 hours of sleep and the night before I only managed about 4. I came home today and wound up falling asleep pretty much right away and got around 4 hours in. It's now 1230 am and I'm still up due to the nap. I guess tomorrow will be another interesting day.
Tomorrow night I'm going to be seeing a friends production of Agnes of God. I haven't seen a live production in over a decade. I always loved working on the shows. I've never really been one to attend shows though. I'm just trying to get back into something more pleasing and artsy. I'm tired of my feeling of depression and uselessness. Maybe this will help make something click.
I like my house. I love my garden. I'm really over the people in stl anymore. I need to find something here that makes me happy. I need to find something to get involved with. Granted with my current work schedule and what I think is coming schedulewise it's about impossible to get involved with anything that requires any sort of regular or real time commitment. I keep thinking about the pacific northwest. I can't make that kind of move with mom at this point in her life. I guess I just feel trapped in life in general between mom and work.
An old friend came into town last weekend from Memphis and we spent most of Saturday hanging out. One day a year isn't enough to really get everything crammed in. Did another photo shoot. This year we did it in my basement. He took 224 shots. I'm looking forward to seeing what comes out of it. I think we probably could have shot for several more hours. I had a pig lined up for the shoot and he wound up bailing on me at the last minute. We've known each other and played for the last 3 years or so now. It wasn't like some random person off of the net or from the bar. Oh well.
I'm trying to eat a bit healthier. I've managed to avoid fastfood for the week while at work. I've also scaled back on soda quite a bit. Hopefully I can loose some of my weight. I'd love to get back under 200 again. I haven't gotten onto a scale in I don't know how long so I really have no clue what I weigh. I'm hoping that a new more regular hour job is in my future. Hell I might even have time to join a gym by the house.
TH TH TH THATS ALL FOLKS......
Yesterday at work people were throwing money at me left and right. Today I couldn't get anyone to spend anything other than the bare minimum.
Moms feeling better and her flu seems to have passed. At her age every sneeze makes me wonder what's next. At lest for now current crisis adverted.
I took a pretty good fall off of a ladder on Monday. My fault not the ladder unfortunately. I got right up and kept on working (I didn't have a choice). By that afternoon I was getting pretty soar. That evening I wound up having to take advil and rub in some biofreeze not once but twice. I was afraid I wasn't going to be able to move when I woke up the next morning but I was fine. I guess I can bounce back better than I thought at *gulp* almost 40.
I bought some landscaping (trees) for the front yard. I went out to get some limestone to start building the retaining walls for the front only to discover that my source dried up. They finally cleared it all off and started in on the last phase of the condos. I priced rock last weekend and discovered that buying it is not an option. I've been hunting craigslist and asking around. Not sure what I'm going to do with the trees I bought now.
The painter is making slow progress on the front of the house. I'm glad I'm not paying him by the hour. If he shows up before 1pm I'm surprised. I'll post pics if he ever finishes. My masonry contractor finally located the last of the stone caps we need to finish the front parapet wall. The capstone is going to cost me more than I wanted but oh well. I'll have leftovers that I can hopefully sell on craigslist and get some of the money back. I'm going to try and get a couple of the glass block basement windows installed this weekend. I've never worked with glass block before so it'll be a new challenge. Hopefully it'll help to keep the house warmer this winter.
I haven't been sleeping well the past couple of days at all. Last night I got about 3 hours of sleep and the night before I only managed about 4. I came home today and wound up falling asleep pretty much right away and got around 4 hours in. It's now 1230 am and I'm still up due to the nap. I guess tomorrow will be another interesting day.
Tomorrow night I'm going to be seeing a friends production of Agnes of God. I haven't seen a live production in over a decade. I always loved working on the shows. I've never really been one to attend shows though. I'm just trying to get back into something more pleasing and artsy. I'm tired of my feeling of depression and uselessness. Maybe this will help make something click.
I like my house. I love my garden. I'm really over the people in stl anymore. I need to find something here that makes me happy. I need to find something to get involved with. Granted with my current work schedule and what I think is coming schedulewise it's about impossible to get involved with anything that requires any sort of regular or real time commitment. I keep thinking about the pacific northwest. I can't make that kind of move with mom at this point in her life. I guess I just feel trapped in life in general between mom and work.
An old friend came into town last weekend from Memphis and we spent most of Saturday hanging out. One day a year isn't enough to really get everything crammed in. Did another photo shoot. This year we did it in my basement. He took 224 shots. I'm looking forward to seeing what comes out of it. I think we probably could have shot for several more hours. I had a pig lined up for the shoot and he wound up bailing on me at the last minute. We've known each other and played for the last 3 years or so now. It wasn't like some random person off of the net or from the bar. Oh well.
I'm trying to eat a bit healthier. I've managed to avoid fastfood for the week while at work. I've also scaled back on soda quite a bit. Hopefully I can loose some of my weight. I'd love to get back under 200 again. I haven't gotten onto a scale in I don't know how long so I really have no clue what I weigh. I'm hoping that a new more regular hour job is in my future. Hell I might even have time to join a gym by the house.
TH TH TH THATS ALL FOLKS......