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so today is supposed to be good. I dont know....blah. I'm excited to see zombie but lately i feel kinda betrayed or ignored if that's even what you want to call it. Nichol Mistorvich sits at this table where amber and manda now sit and it's like they dont' even give two shits about me they just leave me to sit by myself. I don't want to go sit by someone else because i feel that they probably feel that i'm using them for a spot to sit down which isn't true. I mean i just usually sit at that table and i think i'm done sitting there, i'm done with it all. But anyways, i'm going to zombie tonight. Hopefully Kevin is still taking me because no matter what now i have no ride if kevin doesn't take me and pick me up. Christina doesn't want to apparently i mean she really could but it just seems like she doesnt want to. It's illegal yet she'll drink and drive or let drink and drive. yeah whatever! the only reason why the cops would pull us over is if they were speeding, which they wouldn't have to be going too much over in order to stay safe and i could just stay in the "trunk" with the tarp over me...mother fuckers! i'm so pissed at pretty much everyone right now. I can't wait till Heather comes back. I miss her so much...she never ditches me. Oh and i felt so loved when cassie sounded pissed that i was going with them. My best friend doesn't even want me to go with them. It's fucking awesome. I love when people i care about don't care about me. I just wish i could move and start over. I can't wait till i'm out of highschool. Me and Heather are moving the fuck out of this state and partying all the time. I'm done with this place, eagle and palmyra to be exact i don't think i'm keeping in contact with any one. not one single person, besides my family. everyone can fuck off. I used to think that i had all these good friends but apparently i don't. no one even gives a shit. and it's awesome cause tonight i have to hang out with christina, cassie, bill, shane, and mandy. i don't know....blah.