Someone shoot me it's an emoranting night
I let the shit my mother say get to me, a lot. Especially about how I look, dress, and have "inappropriate" hair like under my arms.
Some of my OkCupid excursions haven't panned out. A one night stand was the worst sex ever. Someone actually said it may be because how I carry myself as this go-getter-faggot. I don't even know what that even means.
I have been really trying to be zen and not pursue things hard, just let it come as may. But is that blase attitude coming off as not wanting to get a date? I feel myself emotionally closing off to folks, and I don't want to get into that habit again.
It's not that I want a specific kind of love, I just want love in general. I want to be in the presence of it.
I haven't had someone say I love you in 8 months. Is that needy? I sometimes feel it is. The only thing is I haven't thought about it until -now-. I miss that open-emotional feeling where I did get a chance to cry with someone. I feel like I really wasted a lot of positive-relationship skills and stuff on Griff and Steph. I worked myself raw to really open up at all since it was something I wasn't used to, and instead they were just douchebag teens that well, were being douchebag teens.
Some of my OkCupid excursions haven't panned out. A one night stand was the worst sex ever. Someone actually said it may be because how I carry myself as this go-getter-faggot. I don't even know what that even means.
I have been really trying to be zen and not pursue things hard, just let it come as may. But is that blase attitude coming off as not wanting to get a date? I feel myself emotionally closing off to folks, and I don't want to get into that habit again.
It's not that I want a specific kind of love, I just want love in general. I want to be in the presence of it.
I haven't had someone say I love you in 8 months. Is that needy? I sometimes feel it is. The only thing is I haven't thought about it until -now-. I miss that open-emotional feeling where I did get a chance to cry with someone. I feel like I really wasted a lot of positive-relationship skills and stuff on Griff and Steph. I worked myself raw to really open up at all since it was something I wasn't used to, and instead they were just douchebag teens that well, were being douchebag teens.