catharsis
I lost my mother, then my father (basically my whole family) then I lost my boyfriend (self preservation) and then I lost my closest friend.
I'm sorry if I didn't handle losing my entire family, my boyfriend and my closest friend well enough to satisfy you. I'm sorry if my being in shock made me appear "manipulative."
I don't hate you, or wish you ill-will. I don't like you either, haven't since our first conversation. My gut told me something was "off" with you. I made the mistake of not listening. Not listening to my instincts seems to be the only time I have regrets.
As grateful as I am that things turned out the way they did, I do still sometimes chastise myself for not standing up for myself. But then I remember that I'd just lost my whole family and I forgive myself and realize what an ass you are.
So that's what this is. Me standing up for myself. You stupid fucking asshole.
P.s. Despite what you were told, I NEVER wanted him back. EVER.
I'm sorry if I didn't handle losing my entire family, my boyfriend and my closest friend well enough to satisfy you. I'm sorry if my being in shock made me appear "manipulative."
I don't hate you, or wish you ill-will. I don't like you either, haven't since our first conversation. My gut told me something was "off" with you. I made the mistake of not listening. Not listening to my instincts seems to be the only time I have regrets.
As grateful as I am that things turned out the way they did, I do still sometimes chastise myself for not standing up for myself. But then I remember that I'd just lost my whole family and I forgive myself and realize what an ass you are.
So that's what this is. Me standing up for myself. You stupid fucking asshole.
P.s. Despite what you were told, I NEVER wanted him back. EVER.