off to north carolina i go?

[learntoskank]

My parents were looking at houses in North Carolina again. I am looking forward to it more now than I was. But I still don't want to leave. I don't think we would leave this year if we are even to leave at all. I don't even know if we are going ot leave. My mom has told my dad we have to let me finish highschool. So maybe we won't. But there are times that I sit down and think about it. Moving would be nice. I could start all over. No one would have to know about my past. No one would have to know about my cutting, therapy, anything! Fresh start. I know my "fresh start" here wasn't so hot. I could try again. I just don't want to leave my friends. But I also didn't want to leave my friends in washington and look, 3 years later, they are just memories in a box. Yeah that sounds horrible, I know, but I mean... I just know I'd get over it eventually. I just can't leave Michelle here. I can't leave my friends. But if my parents decide we are moving, I have no choice. And I will just have to think optimistically about it. I know we won't move this year, though. My dad has to actually work at this new store before he can get tranfered to another store all the way across the country. I don't think we'd move this school year either.

I don't know. It good be a good thing for me. But it may not even happen.