Update
Wow, I haven't written here in a while.
Well, I finally have started to get therapy, lol. I have a counselor, and she seems good. I've only seen her once though, my second appointment is next week. I'm so excited to get some help to work through all of my road blocks! Well my boyfriend helps... he helps a lot actually - more than anyone has ever helped. But it's still not enough. I'm not sure if boyfriends make the best counselors, anyway, lol.
Oh and yes, still together and going strong... almost three years. Yay!
With regards to polyamory/whatever, I still feel the same. Umm... Yay I have therapy now! lol. I'm not exactly sure how I'll bring that up. We'll see. I've talked to my b/f's ex-best friend a couple of times. Still think about him a lot. Not as much as I used to though. It seems to come in waves. I have dreams about him a lot... and so one day I thought, hmm, maybe he and I are together in some parallell universe that I visit in my dreams. And as silly as it sounds, that thought is kind of soothing and it kind of makes me miss him less.
Everything else is going really well though. I'm definitely happy about where my life is going. Yay!
Well, I finally have started to get therapy, lol. I have a counselor, and she seems good. I've only seen her once though, my second appointment is next week. I'm so excited to get some help to work through all of my road blocks! Well my boyfriend helps... he helps a lot actually - more than anyone has ever helped. But it's still not enough. I'm not sure if boyfriends make the best counselors, anyway, lol.
Oh and yes, still together and going strong... almost three years. Yay!
With regards to polyamory/whatever, I still feel the same. Umm... Yay I have therapy now! lol. I'm not exactly sure how I'll bring that up. We'll see. I've talked to my b/f's ex-best friend a couple of times. Still think about him a lot. Not as much as I used to though. It seems to come in waves. I have dreams about him a lot... and so one day I thought, hmm, maybe he and I are together in some parallell universe that I visit in my dreams. And as silly as it sounds, that thought is kind of soothing and it kind of makes me miss him less.
Everything else is going really well though. I'm definitely happy about where my life is going. Yay!