Memories?
Umm.. I dont remember the last time I updated, but I decided I should because its 10 in the mornin and I have nothing to do because NOBODY is awake.. and I shouldnt be but Ali woke me up to ask me about our trip to New Orleans this weekend..
It surprises me to look back to when I first began writing in my journal, almost twice a day, and now, I might do it twice a week.. maybe. I guess it shouldnt surprise me, it happens to almost everyone.. hmm. I guess I'm just really getting over the whole computer thing..
I've had such a wonderful summer so far.. and I have a horrible memory, so I'm not gonna try and remember every detail to every day so that I can write it down and you can quickly scroll through it and move on to the next person on your friends list.. dont worry, I understand..
I'll write this for myself however, good and bad, to see what I do remember:
*East Island and hanging out at the club with Ali, Rae, Gin.. etc.
*My trip to New Orleans to go shopping with Ross
*Cookie Dough Fights
*Painting Brittany up.. I shall be a famous makeup artist! :)
*Long unnecessary trips down the boulevard becuase I'm on the phone and I have ADD and I can only pay attention to one thing at a time.. (Gin n Jess! ;))
*My Grandmother getting remarried, and nobody being invited. Not even her daughters and son.
*Looong nights just hanging out at Ross'
*Driving around with Kyle.. hanging out at burger king and just being stupid. :)
*Getting locked in Burger King and waiting half an hour for a HAMBURGER.
*Umm, going to Sun Villa with Ali, Rae, n Ash.
*Gin and Jess staying here for a few days.
*Me fighting with the order person at Sonic.. "blended floats".. Grrr..
*PF Changs :)
andd a buncha other stuff I really dont remember..
You'll never see - the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you
You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie
You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you
You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie
I love talks in his car until 3 in the morning..
It surprises me to look back to when I first began writing in my journal, almost twice a day, and now, I might do it twice a week.. maybe. I guess it shouldnt surprise me, it happens to almost everyone.. hmm. I guess I'm just really getting over the whole computer thing..
I've had such a wonderful summer so far.. and I have a horrible memory, so I'm not gonna try and remember every detail to every day so that I can write it down and you can quickly scroll through it and move on to the next person on your friends list.. dont worry, I understand..
I'll write this for myself however, good and bad, to see what I do remember:
*East Island and hanging out at the club with Ali, Rae, Gin.. etc.
*My trip to New Orleans to go shopping with Ross
*Cookie Dough Fights
*Painting Brittany up.. I shall be a famous makeup artist! :)
*Long unnecessary trips down the boulevard becuase I'm on the phone and I have ADD and I can only pay attention to one thing at a time.. (Gin n Jess! ;))
*My Grandmother getting remarried, and nobody being invited. Not even her daughters and son.
*Looong nights just hanging out at Ross'
*Driving around with Kyle.. hanging out at burger king and just being stupid. :)
*Getting locked in Burger King and waiting half an hour for a HAMBURGER.
*Umm, going to Sun Villa with Ali, Rae, n Ash.
*Gin and Jess staying here for a few days.
*Me fighting with the order person at Sonic.. "blended floats".. Grrr..
*PF Changs :)
andd a buncha other stuff I really dont remember..
You'll never see - the courage I know
Its colors' richness won't appear within your view
I'll never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you
You'll say you understand, but you don't understand
You'll say you'd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you can't afford to lie
You'll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
You'll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than I've ever shown - to you
You'll say, Don't fear your dreams, it's easier than it seems
You'll say you'd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you can't afford to lie
You'll never live the life that I live
I'll never live the life that wakes me in the night
You'll never hear the message I give
You'll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
You'll say you understand, you'll never understand
I'll say I'll never wake up knowing how or why
I don't know what to believe in, you don't know who I am
You'll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and I'll never need a lie
I love talks in his car until 3 in the morning..