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Hey everyone!
So it's been a week or so since I've updated this. A lot has happened since then. Last Thursday I endured my first big responsibility of being a nurse; we went to the nursing home and had our own patient for over 3 hours. We had to give bedbaths, get our patients dressed, feed them breakfast.... all that jazz. I was really scared, as it was our first time doing ANY of that, but my patient was so adorable. I noticed that she was quite old, when reviewing her charts. As we were bathing her, she asked us how old we thought she was. I said, "Certainly not a day over 25," and she waited for my partner to reply, "37!" She just smiled and said "I'm 97 years old." She was so cute. Oh my goodness. I didn't want to leave her. I kind of had a hard time walking out of the room, knowing how lonely she is. Knowing how much pain she's in, yet the nurses don't bother to take 5 minutes to rub her back. Knowing that the nurses aren't concerned with putting lotion on her, like she enjoys. It's sad.
I went home this weekend.... which I soooooo needed. I needed a break from my room. I needed a break from work. I drove home Friday after taking my sociology test. When I got home, my mom and I went and got dinner (me- los tequilas of course, her-KFC). I thoroughly enjoyed my enchiladas. :-) Mmmm! We then went to walmart and I got all the stuff I needed to bring back to school. We really went with the intentions of getting ice cream, but didn't leave the store til an hour or so later, and with a cart full of stuff. Go figure. :-P After I got around for bed, Heidi came over. We talked about random stuff, as always. She drew me a kickin' picture. I'll have to show it to you sometime. As for now, it will remain in my sketch journal.
Saturday I woke up super duper early because Heidi and I were planning on going to the outlet mall in Freemont. However, papa Gary (Heidi's dad) didn't want us to go because it was so foggy. So instead, I had more time to get around and watch TV, listen to music and relax before she came over at about noon. We sat around talking, waiting for my mom to get home so the three of us could go shopping in Battle Creek (I wanted to get some old school converse's). She called us from Kiess' and told us to go without her; she didn't want to go. So I drove Heidi and I to the mall. The ride up there was kinda quiet.... we were just enjoying some Kelly Clarkson I guess. We talked a bit about the funeral and Kimo. When we got to the mall, we got some perfume in Victoria's Secret (only the BEST smelling stuff ever). We checked out the sales in all the stores but neither of us found anything. We went to Hallmark, where I spent $36 on cards. Haha. Go figure. Then I forgot to take my ID in, and they almost didn't let me use my debit card to buy the cards, so I was a little stressed. I parked forever away and didn't want to walk out to get my ID to buy those cards. They eventually just let it slide. Thank goodness. Heidi bought 3 cards; one of which I'm jealous I didn't see. It's so awesome. HAHA! I'm still laughing about it. Darn cement squirrels ;-) Then we went to TJ Max, Best Buy and Michael's, all of where we still didn't buy jack. She bought Kimo this hilarious looking Samoan rap CD, by one of his favorite bands or something. The ride home was probably one of the best moments of my weekend. We really talked a lot about the funeral. And just how God is changing us both, as well as the whole town of Coldwater. I wasn't sure if she'd be ready to open up and talk, but she did an awesome job!
When we got back, Brandon and Amanda were home. After sitting around for a few minutes visiting, we went to Mancino's for dinner. It was fun. I got a little rowdy with my spit-wad shooting. :-) Drilled some of them pretty good. And if you see the one above the picture by the drinking fountains, that wasn't from me ;-) We were going to go bowling but the alley was packed. Instead we rented.... what, 4? movies. Amanda, Heidi and I went to Heidi's house, because I hadn't seen Gary's new house yet. We spent a lot of time in Bridgette's room, just talking. Then we all went to my house and watched Jersey Girl. Heidi fell asleep next to me on the couch. We were sharing a pillow, so I told my mom to go get a camera. I pretended like I was sleeping too, for the picture. A few minutes later, we grabbed each other's hand (I think in her sleep).... and though this might sound weird, it felt good to have her rub my hand. Just knowing that I have a sister in her. Knowing that we have so much openness between the two of us- that we talk about everything. I miss her so much. So my mom noticed that we were both sleepy and holding hands, so she took another picture. :-) THose are gonna be cute. When the movie got over, I took a shower and everyone went to bed.
Got up early Sunday (though my alarm didn't go off, Chopper woke me up) and got ready for church. Amanda, my mom and I went cuz Kelly Sue was singing with her sister. They sang a song that was sung at Bridgette's funeral, so Amanda got pretty emotional. It was a good service- talked about Esther, which we are studying in sociology. :-) Neat. It was just good to get a lot of hugs- which I never get here at school, unless it involves being tackled in the cafeteria by Lacy. Haha (which I sit here, feeling the pain from my bruises on my knees). After church, mom and I took hot rod granny some lunch from Arby's. It was nice to visit with her and Uncle Willard. I miss granny. :-) She's so cool.
When we got home, mom began making some AMAZING reese's cookies. Oh man alive, they are so good. I am trying to not eat them all in the next week, so I just drool at the tupperware box they're sitting in to my left. Mmmmmm. Mark called, so I went over to his house to visit with him for a few minutes. His dogs had puppies!!!!! YAY! They were the most adorable little things ever. I held onto the little boy for quite a while. Couldn't get him out of my hands :-) It was cool to actually talk to Matt. I never see him, so it was neat to hear about how his house is coming along. I didn't really get to talk to Mark a lot though, because his dad and Matt were going at it about what needed to be finished at his house. However, when Mark called before I went over, we talked for quite a while. It was just nice to see him. To see those beautiful eyes. To notice them planted on me when I was looking out of the corner of my eye. I miss him so much. I actually cried myself to sleep the previous 2 nights, because I miss him. I miss talking to him every day. How we found stuff to talk about for hours everyday, I'm not sure, but I miss it. I got up to leave after Matt and his dad kept arguing. When I walked outside, Mark followed me out (they had more company arrive). I asked him for a hug, and for once in his life, he gave me a good hug. I didn't even have to demand that he use both arms. He wouldn't let go either. It was nice. I miss him. Have I said that already :-) I'm glad that we're still friends. It's hard to just be that, but it is better this way, watching him get back on the path to God's open arms. He's been reading and getting his life back on track amazingly lately. Impressive. Maybe that's all he needed was a little time? Either way, I'll be excited to go spend time with him when I go home on winter break (I'm sure we'll hang out a little bit).
Then I came back to school, where I feel so.... standoffish. I miss home already. It's crazy how growing up, you hate the town you live in. It's so small and there's nothing to do. But when you leave, you miss that town like crazy. I am counting down to when I get to go home again (9 days :-)) I cannot wait. I love my family so much- especially my mom. She's the most amazing woman I've ever met. For so many years, she was just "mom". But now I realize she's so much more than that. She's my very best friend. I never realized how much she does for me. She never stops giving- even when she runs out of energy and stuff to give, she still finds a way. It's amazing. In fact, I made a comment Sunday morning on how I needed a new cross necklace. Before I left, she presented me with a cross necklace. She noticed that mine was getting bad, so she went to the jewelry store on Saturday and brought home 2 so I could have my choice. Wow. Talk about rock on! I miss her SO much.
And that's it. I'm pretty frustrated tonight... kinda teary eyed. I've been emotional the last few nights, like I said, but really tonight. I feel like last week was a lie. Everything that happened was a lie. And now things are going to be the way they were. Take that for what it's worth.
So it's been a week or so since I've updated this. A lot has happened since then. Last Thursday I endured my first big responsibility of being a nurse; we went to the nursing home and had our own patient for over 3 hours. We had to give bedbaths, get our patients dressed, feed them breakfast.... all that jazz. I was really scared, as it was our first time doing ANY of that, but my patient was so adorable. I noticed that she was quite old, when reviewing her charts. As we were bathing her, she asked us how old we thought she was. I said, "Certainly not a day over 25," and she waited for my partner to reply, "37!" She just smiled and said "I'm 97 years old." She was so cute. Oh my goodness. I didn't want to leave her. I kind of had a hard time walking out of the room, knowing how lonely she is. Knowing how much pain she's in, yet the nurses don't bother to take 5 minutes to rub her back. Knowing that the nurses aren't concerned with putting lotion on her, like she enjoys. It's sad.
I went home this weekend.... which I soooooo needed. I needed a break from my room. I needed a break from work. I drove home Friday after taking my sociology test. When I got home, my mom and I went and got dinner (me- los tequilas of course, her-KFC). I thoroughly enjoyed my enchiladas. :-) Mmmm! We then went to walmart and I got all the stuff I needed to bring back to school. We really went with the intentions of getting ice cream, but didn't leave the store til an hour or so later, and with a cart full of stuff. Go figure. :-P After I got around for bed, Heidi came over. We talked about random stuff, as always. She drew me a kickin' picture. I'll have to show it to you sometime. As for now, it will remain in my sketch journal.
Saturday I woke up super duper early because Heidi and I were planning on going to the outlet mall in Freemont. However, papa Gary (Heidi's dad) didn't want us to go because it was so foggy. So instead, I had more time to get around and watch TV, listen to music and relax before she came over at about noon. We sat around talking, waiting for my mom to get home so the three of us could go shopping in Battle Creek (I wanted to get some old school converse's). She called us from Kiess' and told us to go without her; she didn't want to go. So I drove Heidi and I to the mall. The ride up there was kinda quiet.... we were just enjoying some Kelly Clarkson I guess. We talked a bit about the funeral and Kimo. When we got to the mall, we got some perfume in Victoria's Secret (only the BEST smelling stuff ever). We checked out the sales in all the stores but neither of us found anything. We went to Hallmark, where I spent $36 on cards. Haha. Go figure. Then I forgot to take my ID in, and they almost didn't let me use my debit card to buy the cards, so I was a little stressed. I parked forever away and didn't want to walk out to get my ID to buy those cards. They eventually just let it slide. Thank goodness. Heidi bought 3 cards; one of which I'm jealous I didn't see. It's so awesome. HAHA! I'm still laughing about it. Darn cement squirrels ;-) Then we went to TJ Max, Best Buy and Michael's, all of where we still didn't buy jack. She bought Kimo this hilarious looking Samoan rap CD, by one of his favorite bands or something. The ride home was probably one of the best moments of my weekend. We really talked a lot about the funeral. And just how God is changing us both, as well as the whole town of Coldwater. I wasn't sure if she'd be ready to open up and talk, but she did an awesome job!
When we got back, Brandon and Amanda were home. After sitting around for a few minutes visiting, we went to Mancino's for dinner. It was fun. I got a little rowdy with my spit-wad shooting. :-) Drilled some of them pretty good. And if you see the one above the picture by the drinking fountains, that wasn't from me ;-) We were going to go bowling but the alley was packed. Instead we rented.... what, 4? movies. Amanda, Heidi and I went to Heidi's house, because I hadn't seen Gary's new house yet. We spent a lot of time in Bridgette's room, just talking. Then we all went to my house and watched Jersey Girl. Heidi fell asleep next to me on the couch. We were sharing a pillow, so I told my mom to go get a camera. I pretended like I was sleeping too, for the picture. A few minutes later, we grabbed each other's hand (I think in her sleep).... and though this might sound weird, it felt good to have her rub my hand. Just knowing that I have a sister in her. Knowing that we have so much openness between the two of us- that we talk about everything. I miss her so much. So my mom noticed that we were both sleepy and holding hands, so she took another picture. :-) THose are gonna be cute. When the movie got over, I took a shower and everyone went to bed.
Got up early Sunday (though my alarm didn't go off, Chopper woke me up) and got ready for church. Amanda, my mom and I went cuz Kelly Sue was singing with her sister. They sang a song that was sung at Bridgette's funeral, so Amanda got pretty emotional. It was a good service- talked about Esther, which we are studying in sociology. :-) Neat. It was just good to get a lot of hugs- which I never get here at school, unless it involves being tackled in the cafeteria by Lacy. Haha (which I sit here, feeling the pain from my bruises on my knees). After church, mom and I took hot rod granny some lunch from Arby's. It was nice to visit with her and Uncle Willard. I miss granny. :-) She's so cool.
When we got home, mom began making some AMAZING reese's cookies. Oh man alive, they are so good. I am trying to not eat them all in the next week, so I just drool at the tupperware box they're sitting in to my left. Mmmmmm. Mark called, so I went over to his house to visit with him for a few minutes. His dogs had puppies!!!!! YAY! They were the most adorable little things ever. I held onto the little boy for quite a while. Couldn't get him out of my hands :-) It was cool to actually talk to Matt. I never see him, so it was neat to hear about how his house is coming along. I didn't really get to talk to Mark a lot though, because his dad and Matt were going at it about what needed to be finished at his house. However, when Mark called before I went over, we talked for quite a while. It was just nice to see him. To see those beautiful eyes. To notice them planted on me when I was looking out of the corner of my eye. I miss him so much. I actually cried myself to sleep the previous 2 nights, because I miss him. I miss talking to him every day. How we found stuff to talk about for hours everyday, I'm not sure, but I miss it. I got up to leave after Matt and his dad kept arguing. When I walked outside, Mark followed me out (they had more company arrive). I asked him for a hug, and for once in his life, he gave me a good hug. I didn't even have to demand that he use both arms. He wouldn't let go either. It was nice. I miss him. Have I said that already :-) I'm glad that we're still friends. It's hard to just be that, but it is better this way, watching him get back on the path to God's open arms. He's been reading and getting his life back on track amazingly lately. Impressive. Maybe that's all he needed was a little time? Either way, I'll be excited to go spend time with him when I go home on winter break (I'm sure we'll hang out a little bit).
Then I came back to school, where I feel so.... standoffish. I miss home already. It's crazy how growing up, you hate the town you live in. It's so small and there's nothing to do. But when you leave, you miss that town like crazy. I am counting down to when I get to go home again (9 days :-)) I cannot wait. I love my family so much- especially my mom. She's the most amazing woman I've ever met. For so many years, she was just "mom". But now I realize she's so much more than that. She's my very best friend. I never realized how much she does for me. She never stops giving- even when she runs out of energy and stuff to give, she still finds a way. It's amazing. In fact, I made a comment Sunday morning on how I needed a new cross necklace. Before I left, she presented me with a cross necklace. She noticed that mine was getting bad, so she went to the jewelry store on Saturday and brought home 2 so I could have my choice. Wow. Talk about rock on! I miss her SO much.
And that's it. I'm pretty frustrated tonight... kinda teary eyed. I've been emotional the last few nights, like I said, but really tonight. I feel like last week was a lie. Everything that happened was a lie. And now things are going to be the way they were. Take that for what it's worth.