my BuBbLe just PoPpEd :(
well yeah stef as usual...im left out in the rain....with no umbrella...
why?
am i so bad?? or i mean what is wrong with me...so wrong that i cant get guys who want me and love me?
he told me he felt bad for doing what we did and that we cant do that anymore...but he still wants to be close friends bc im cool as shit....
cool as shit??
come on now....we just made out for an hour in the back of your truck...but thats ok bc im cool as shit....
oh well...married guys sheesh haha ;)
i guess its for the best...i know i felt bad...but i thought it would be different this time...really...i just knew that it was the right thing to do...but once again the single lonely girl is WRONG WRONG WRONG...i dont know...i know one thing...no more guys that are attatched in ANY way to anyone else...i really want to find a guy though...i know i have to stop looking and just let him come to me...bc if i find someone i want...i know that they dont want me back...i dont blame them...bleh look at me....fuck...
i never get the ones i want...and the ones i have that actually like me...i let them get away....sheesh its times like this that i really miss Jami..he really treated me great...but i let him go...why? i have no idea...
*mental note* get his number from brittnie
Hmm i should take out an add in the nickle ads HECK YES!
it will read...
Love me...Please?? Leann- 225.268.4053 lmao
i dont know ...i just dont know...im trying to make myself feel better, but its really hard when you cant just get up and go see your best friend in the whole world.....bc your life sucks and your leg is all bannnnged up..fuck it..oh well.
IMA SOULJAH~ lmao i will make it through.....bc im just great like that...i really do hope things get better for me really soon....i dont know what i will do if they dont....
i have to confess something though...ive been lying to everyone...
Im NOT happy....im the most depressed ive ever been in my life...but i feel bad if i show it...who am i to bring everyone else down??
if i am not talking on the phone "faking" happiness im in my room or my bathroom crying...just praying that something good will happen to me...its pathetic right...i know it is...i hate it...and the sad thing is that i am taking depression medicine and it still isnt working. whats wrong with me....? everything...duh
i know i sound like a crazy nutcase but its just how i feel...and i dont know how to fix it...i hate my life right now........i hate myself right now.....fuck..!!
UnTiL NeXt TiMe.....if there is one...
LeAnNiCa!
why?
am i so bad?? or i mean what is wrong with me...so wrong that i cant get guys who want me and love me?
he told me he felt bad for doing what we did and that we cant do that anymore...but he still wants to be close friends bc im cool as shit....
cool as shit??
come on now....we just made out for an hour in the back of your truck...but thats ok bc im cool as shit....
oh well...married guys sheesh haha ;)
i guess its for the best...i know i felt bad...but i thought it would be different this time...really...i just knew that it was the right thing to do...but once again the single lonely girl is WRONG WRONG WRONG...i dont know...i know one thing...no more guys that are attatched in ANY way to anyone else...i really want to find a guy though...i know i have to stop looking and just let him come to me...bc if i find someone i want...i know that they dont want me back...i dont blame them...bleh look at me....fuck...
i never get the ones i want...and the ones i have that actually like me...i let them get away....sheesh its times like this that i really miss Jami..he really treated me great...but i let him go...why? i have no idea...
*mental note* get his number from brittnie
Hmm i should take out an add in the nickle ads HECK YES!
it will read...
Love me...Please?? Leann- 225.268.4053 lmao
i dont know ...i just dont know...im trying to make myself feel better, but its really hard when you cant just get up and go see your best friend in the whole world.....bc your life sucks and your leg is all bannnnged up..fuck it..oh well.
IMA SOULJAH~ lmao i will make it through.....bc im just great like that...i really do hope things get better for me really soon....i dont know what i will do if they dont....
i have to confess something though...ive been lying to everyone...
Im NOT happy....im the most depressed ive ever been in my life...but i feel bad if i show it...who am i to bring everyone else down??
if i am not talking on the phone "faking" happiness im in my room or my bathroom crying...just praying that something good will happen to me...its pathetic right...i know it is...i hate it...and the sad thing is that i am taking depression medicine and it still isnt working. whats wrong with me....? everything...duh
i know i sound like a crazy nutcase but its just how i feel...and i dont know how to fix it...i hate my life right now........i hate myself right now.....fuck..!!
UnTiL NeXt TiMe.....if there is one...
LeAnNiCa!